The armless beastly dreads
Of fang and tooth and head
Whispering doubts and fears and hate
Dripping cold stale lies
Of how pathatic
Your heart bleeds
And your eyes dream
And that happiness
Is just a hollow hope
They drip and melt
Their misery to coat
Your soul with
Their venomous despair
These armless beastly dreads
Of fang and tooth and head
Have nothing but their tears
Having long lost all they held dear
Ghastly mists of fright
Hunting for souls lost at night
Hunger for hearts they find
Too beautiful for this world
They took Van Gogh
And left not a trace
Of their murderous deed
And the list of all
That they have taken
Is longer than the history of sorrow
Their most notorious crime
Their greatest parlor trick
Is that they are invisible to most
You will only know them
If they have claimed
Your heart and dreams and hopes
As their host
The armless beastly dreads
Of fang and tooth and head

When you spend time with old friends,
Those that you've know since,
Before you can remember.
That mean everything to you,
And have been there every step of the way.
When you realize the next journey,
Must be taken alone.
That you can't all walk the same path,
It tears you apart.
I've never seen my best friends,
Cry before tonight.
And I'm hoping,
This isn't my last memory of them.

Some say it would be great
to go back to those better days
but I remember a younger me
escaping in dreams
but waking in tears
no fears
Only a slight inkling
of my sad self sinking.

I am not certain
if the hurt was worsened,
stayed the same, or was softened.
I only now know
how much I have changed.

Old pains may remain.
heart bled a puddle strange
but so much feels unchanged;
Even though, I am unchained
from those past burdens.

Old pains only find me
in the remembering of
my younger self.

Going back in time
in my creative mind
is like picking a scab
or biting my tongue
I still feel it.

It helps to see
some of what was
but I would not go
back there for real

The Lord your God
           in your midst,
the Mighty One,
          He will save;
with gladness      
          He will rejoice
over you,
         He will quiet you
with His love,
         He will rejoice
over you
        with singing....

Zephaniah 3 :17

cj 2016