To imagine us together, you and I
Makes it all seem worth while.
The waking up in the night with no light.
You're the light in my night as for the shadow that walks amongst me is my knight.
I feel love when we are together I know Love.
But there's always a but cigarettes or decisions, there it is a but and that but proceeds to be could it be true love?
Will this be a happy story or character development?
The jinks of God's total Devine.
Will we get to spend time together forever or will it be a waste of time to tell minds that I've been spending time talking to when you weren't using mine. That I have found love. Or for that matter for once love has found me. And not only has love found me. It came with a beautiful woman and a baby.
I pray it could be.
I do I do everyday and I am truly scared so for that being said I'm ready to jump...
Cliff dive Right into your love with all of me I am truly ready for maybes and naes.
Because it really could be.

Dead inside I am.
Dead I am.
Pain is only in my head where my demons live.
Daily doses of lies. "I'm good" "I'm always good (fake smile)"
Death use to be something of fear for me.
Now I don't know the difference between living and dieing.
Are we living to die?
Or are we dieing to live?
Dead inside I am.
I am dead.
Visuals of the bottom of a lake and how long it'll take me to reach the bottom.
How hurt will my mother be?
Dead inside I am.
I am Dead.
Feelings are nothing more than a tease of what I believe to be the key to happiness.
That happiness is when you finally get to lay in a casket or be cremated into a ern.
Dead inside I am.
I am Dead.
Why feel anything?
No pills needed for me to not feel.
Only takes one thing to make sure that smile of mines turns to rain.
And it to me is worst than death.
I will live until my final day here.
I will remain the same.
Dead inside I am.
I am Dead.

What do you do when you can't  hear any music  to play or see any movie to watch
Your friends are all dead and your out of *** but stuck in your head?
Hello portry

Ceiling fan Ceiling fan Ceiling fan
Spin so fast I get lost when I can
Ceiling fan Ceiling fan Ceiling fan
You're more appealing than the wall could ever can
Ceiling fan Ceiling fan Ceiling fan
You keep spinning fast so I can pass out
Ceiling fan
You no doubt, keep me company till I am out like the lights I refuse to turn on when I'm laying in bed and are alone
Ceiling fan
You the best, like you have a S and a chest, you keep my eyes glued and entertained until the light goes out in my brain
Ceiling fan

I have no clue what to say
The sky is blue, the sun is shinning and the birds are singing tunes I wish I knew
This is church to read a real or to read and smile at the joy we bring
Maybe I will fly away
I don't know what's next or what's left
I do know one thing, the sky is blue
The sun is shining and the birds are singing tunes I only wish I knew

I looked the devil in the eyes
He said I'll never fly.
My soul is his paid in full
I'll surely never die.
Stuck on hellven forever
No tears I have to cry.
I'm lost of words I'm lost of time
This little lite of mine.
Was never mine my soul is dying
I swore and wasted time.
I pray to god to save me please
But it's a waste of time.
I looked the devil in the eyes
He said "you'll never fly!"
Stuck on hellven forever
Ill surely never die.

They say it's easy being single and on your own. Well when you entire generation is either trapped in school jail job or phone theirs no hope for peace. Lone life is a long life worth living. Especially knowing you can laugh at your own jokes. Ha. They wish they had my life when all i want is theirs. Lone living is cool like your free in all ways but don't ever forget to pay for anything on any day for it may cause you to say. Hey i need help..... Single? Lives on your own? You! Need a loan? Ha haha that's a joke to the Goats that's been down my road. They say just focus on your job learn to love it and just stay safe. Somehow i feel like they may have left there dreams behind and that they don't see that mine are killing me.

I smoke **** just like you.
Money gives me greed just like you.
******* makes me wonder just like you.
My parents kicked me out when i was 17 just like you.
I died inside when i turned 13 just like you.
I saw life for what it was a 7 just like you.
I want to die everyday just like you.
I think about killing myself just ljke you.
I don't like money just like you.
I love the moon just like you.
I love the idea of love just like you.
Most important im not alone, just like you.

The sound it makes rolling off your tongue.......haaaazel
Locks me almost to a halt as i look into your eye's
Lord their defined i see the pain joy and happiness in one gaze
I see your rosey cheeks and soon lose faith
It couldn't be? But it must as the lady in the blue dress approached slowly closer to me
Hi im.....WAIT
This couldn't be true.
Did you say hazel?
Yes, why yes in deed hazel eyes in the suns complete
Hazel eyes in the moonlight is devine
She wrapped me up an in the moment of time
I lost sight became blind
I haven't seen those hazel eyes
It was a dream, it was only a dream......

Every since the day i heard about you things got worse.
I took a reading on you now my wrist hurt.
Time kills i had to carve it in my arm.
Since splitting lines would of made me more insane to the eye.
The people i should say.
I feel high when i haven't even smoke the ****.
And when i smoke the **** you keep me paranoid to think.
I'ma go to jail if the cops catch me smoking on this tree.
When the money the same color of the ***** see.
This why i can't die because i just want to see.
The day it's legalize in the cle.
You my old friend will surely subside because one day hopefully soon it'll be legal to decide if i want to be high.
Depressed i shall remain.
Until i catch a train or fly upon a plane.
To my mother land where even there **** is spooky.
Feel like anywhere i go it's a chance of a scary movie.
But you depression, you everywhere i go.
I can't even have a girlfriend because of the thought of turning cold.
Giving nothing but my full soul in return for her hand.
Then you kick in and tell me she wants another man.
****
Depression wish you would leave now my hand bleeds.
I carved God on my hand so hopefully if he's real he'll see.
That my depression will surely try and really **** me.
And anxiety, your something that makes my nose bleed.
Im done with this depression waiting patiently for bills to past
So i can legally smoke the ***** tree while laying on the grass.

Kid brother your birthday is in two days. Yesterday was your party you would be 21 if they didn't stop your heart from beating. Life's hard as usual but i maintain the fact of being harder. Demons negative forces continue to play a huge part in my life leaving me with the thought of death and hope for the day.... I finally got a acoustic i learned three chords haven't touched it since. I wrote a song called change but somehow it still leaves me hopeless for positive energy. I know your safe and happy in your heaven of all the things you ever wanted. Your heaven of light and peace. Until i get there, be my angel and guide me to you.

The path
As a young soul, innocence was no sense at all.
Birds were amazing seeing them only to think "one day im going to fly!"- Holy wolf

Ha, don't get me started
At first it was jokes about who farted
Then became jokes about who coughed on the tree
Ha, at first it was football then skipping school and breaking rules
Getting good grades but stayed barely in tune....
What happened?
Friends?
Is it because it has end at the end of a word so bleak that it could never be true because
Definition states that friends are those who are close..
But now we're just split and distant like ghost who float on our on clouds
Breaking are own rules
No longer skipping school to get high...
Now were at work everyday trying to get by, while some stick to telling lies like I don't get high no more...Ha, friends what happened man,bro,homie,dog,og?
I guess friends do come to an end like the drop of this text box type style ink pen............

If this is life
Work
Pay
Eat
Sleep
Repeat
A cycle of not going ******
Trying to stay humble
And positive soaking my time up in trees
That no longer breath
But turn to paper
Which Is spent to stay warm at night
If this is life I don't know the true meaning of living

What am I
What are you
What are we
What should we do
Is it God
Or is it a 22
I'm 22 and see nothing but the birds in blue
Should I breath or should I hold my breath
Is this world real
I ask you because you am I
We our together and we all soon fly
But the birds in blue soon turn to the birds in black
They call this America
I call it a child screaming for help
This world
It couldn't be real- Holy wolf