It's feels so uncomfortable
When you witness a conversation
Digesting the fact he or she
Is confident in their ablities.

It makes me wish
I grew up the same way.

I wish I was Stronger.
Handsome.
Attractive.

Instead of this whiney
Hopeless
*******.

Follow me dearest
Come with me lover
Let me show you what you thought was never there
Let me sing to you the song of my sleepless nights
The one that kept me awake all this time
I am not who you think I am
Nor the one you thought you knew

Burn I say. I scream.
As i cast myself aside.
Turning my back on my feelings
And such worthless sense of pride.
My feet shake the earth.
My hands bash bone.
Slaughtering them and all.
Skulls shattered on stone.
The blood paints the walls
The sky and the land.
And i do not stop
This rampage thats at hand...


And when i retire
Myself resting on the pile
Of everyone I knew
For the longest while..
I laugh till I cry
Tears stream from my eyes

Regreting nothing.

You tell me to go.
To leave you behind.
But lust dances with my soul
To that I find
That my heart is a mess
Juggling love and rage at best.
Finding the right words to confess
My lowly state of mind.

She sleeps soundly.
Soft moans from fatigue.
And I lay here wondering what becomes of me.
Do I continue to despair?
Or go on without a care?
The heart has limits; that I know.
Even so, you tell me to go.

To leave you behind.

Darkness, take me.