I woke up from her

With her blue eyes

And an open book,

I craved her from the beginning to the end.

But she was far from my reach.

Like the distance we share.

I woke up feeling despair

And a will to hold her in my arms.


Another day I’ll shall suffer

Believing such mediocrity.

For I am just an affectionate parasite,

With no hope of returned love.

Wrap your head
Around the thought.

Let it sink in.
Let it tangle into knots and chaos.
Let your soul bleed for the knowledge
The understanding of it;
the heart can bleed oh so much.

Let it sink in.
Like fangs out for flesh and satisfaction.
Like lips rubbing on a cheek for comfort.
Or a knife causing destruction.

Only then with a sigh of relief.
The thoughts becomes clear.

You are you.
You are alone.

Would I ever be something more
Than the thoughts that haunt my mind
Or the letters I keep to forget?

Would I ever be something more
Than the dreams I live at night
Or the tears I never shed?

Would I ever be something more
Than the language I cannot speak
Or all the persons I could be?

Would I ever be something more
Than all that takes shape in front of me
But never quite make it into words?

Would I ever be...

Sitting here
Waiting
Anticipating
Your touch
Eager to please
Your needs
Is what I need
Our time will come
As it will pass
While we are here
Lets make it last.

"My eyes wake up to the sound.
Of your voice, so profound,
That it takes my breath away.
Little do I know and realize
That it is all in my head.
And that I am just awakening
From a lovesick state of fatigue.

I wanted to cry, but I shook it off.
I bare my fangs. Hide my fear
At the thought of her with another.
What place was I to ever think such a selfish thing?
To only give her comfort under the warmth of my arms.
To only kiss the lips id ache to kiss.
One who is hurting far worse then I.

So I lay in bed alone.
The darkness shrouds me like a blanket.
The music takes me away.
Holding back selfish tears that could follow.

And the thought of you in my arms,
My legs tangled with yours,
Cheek on cheek. Fingers together.
With a soft kiss letting you know
"You're beautiful.
You Matter.
You're Worth it."
Made me miss you more
And Love you even further....."

It was after 4am
And you were on my mind.