Arms wraped around hers as we lay in bed.
Memories stirr within her head.
But i hold her and love her with all that i can.
Even each soft kiss and touch from my hand.
Infatuation? Lust? Dances in my soul.
Puzzle pieces hoping to become whole.
My mind screaming for answers while the feelings rush out.
The lips upon lips, which my mind burns at the thought.
I wince. I shout.
I hold her tight to tell her she is worth it.
That'll she'll make it. She is beautiful. And I love her for it.
I dare kiss her lips oh the thought burns!
My body winces.
Twists and turns.

And as i awake from my daydream into the darkness of my room.
I sigh and hold myself, to save myself from doom.
It is no surprise that this was a powerful work of art.
The feelings for you that dance in my heart...

Sorrows casted through and through
Beneath the shadows of the true
Does human kind wonder in despair?
Or do we simply just breath in this toxic air?
I pick the choices which i have known
Ones I dare to say I own.
And when the heart begin to fall
I have no choice but to crawl

Shes smiling there, admist the crowd
Arms open, feeling proud
Before I get to share a kiss
Shes without a trace, forever missed
Random thoughts and words expressed
A fools dream or wishes at best
One would probably have never cared or guessed
That its after 4am and im so depressed.

So here I lay
In the dark dark dark
Even if the sun is still raising
In the end
It's dark dark dark
My eyes are open
The sky is bright
I can see
I can breathe
  Inhale
     Exhale
Live and be
And yet
It's still dark dark dark
Not much seems to make sense
Right now
Even though I still remember me
Language is hurting my head
Words are poisoning my life
For when I think of them
All I can see is them
People I know and people I don't
Lives I have and the ones I don't
I see me
I see me not
I see me
I see who I am not
How I should be
And who I am being right now
And it's all dark dark dark

Can someone choke me
And remind me how to breathe

Hide me in a disguise.
Pull down the curtains
Turn off the lights.
Trying not to fight
The sands between my eyes.

Theres no way around it.
Theres no need to shout it.
I'm alone and thats about it.

Thats about it.

Its alot to take in.

The thoughts that overwhelm you.
The pain in your chest.
The tight knots in your heart.

You want to cry
But you're too numb.
Too tired.
You want to die.
But you're too scared.
Too hopeful.

It replays in your mind.
The what-ifs. They are infinite
They send you into oblivion.

Shes smiling.
Shes crying.
Shes angry.
Shes twirling her hair.
Holding her arm.
Biting her lip.
Watching Tv.
Playing a video game.
Crying herself to sleep.
Talking to the one she adores.

And you will never be hers.
Then like a truck, it hits you.
You will always be alone.

Missing a ghost never to be.