you made others numb with the
words you put together in order
to open their minds,
and though you referenced death
you never meant to bring it to life,
in fact your whole purpose
was to cure the others
who felt helpless.

you forever changed my perception
of emotion, and i need you in my life.

i have started a fire that i tend to
chase with gasoline, in effort to put it out.

i have obliterated all in my
path of destruction and can’t seem to
slow down.

eventually you get used to others
being sorry, you get tired of the pity
and would rather them say
nothing at all. all you want is
someone to talk to that relates.

and though i protect you,
i need saving too

there are often times i am caught in a
position i can’t handle.
i want more than anything to make everyone  happy, not being able to do
that tears me apart. it’s an endless
cycle of what happens to be
my biggest fear; disappointment.

but i have learned, that no matter how hard i try, i can’t save the world