there are often times i am caught in a
position i can’t handle.
i want more than anything to make everyone  happy, not being able to do
that tears me apart. it’s an endless
cycle of what happens to be
my biggest fear; disappointment.

but i have learned, that no matter how hard i try, i can’t save the world

the words are foreign but the feeling is farmiliar.

i don’t know what to do with myself

i am, on my own, putting myself into even deeper trouble.

and this time i looked up, thinking that would make me stop digging deeper.

but i have come to realize that it didn’t stop me

and that i am in the midst of my inevitable and predicted downfall.

when you learned how to sleep with your
eyes open, you also climbed out of our grave
from six feet under. i stayed behind, and that's okay...

i dug with my own hands
and my own shovel.
only to find that,
fires can’t burn six feet under.

it was all fun and games until it wasn't.
running around in circles, a mind and matter situation.