My anxiety is unbearable this time,
I'm having a break down.
The clock is about to chime,
But I feel like a clown.

When I walk in,
I know they will stare.
I know I'm not a ten,
But is this fair?

My insecurities fill my head.
Why am I doing this?
Critical is what I'm being fed.
I walk out knowing it's a hit or miss.

So here goes nothing...

I stay awake,
Scared of what the night will take.

This silence is filled with screams,
And it rips at my dreams.

I thought I was running from you,
Turns out I was trying to get away from myself.

I hide behind broken mirrors,
Because I can't stand to see this monster inside of me.

I've learned not to flinch,
I take every blow.
Not crying until your gone,
I just wish you'd leave me alone.