And I
Was so stuck
On my own
Little
Problems
That I totally
Missed
That you were
Suicidal
Too.

She probably wanted to be free,
I've wanted to be free of it all sometimes too.
I wonder if she grew wings before she fell?
Cause you could see the pain in her eyes
when you saw her cry.
And you could feel the anger in her voice,
from a past that wasn't her choice.
But you could also hear a person in need,
a woman dying to be free,
free of the hurt and sorrow life had given her.
But also a girl who didn't want give in yet.
She was the only Queen in Drag,
who could strut her stuff like a Barbie.
She could make everyone smile,
Just by walking in the room and grinning.
She will always be missed,
So let me "Blow you,
One last kiss"
Cause I know you liked P!nk,
What Barbie wouldn't?
Now life continues on,
But I'll never forget the wings Ms. Barbie had
when she was alive.
She was a bright, colorful woman,
filled to the brink with energetic personality.
Goodbye my dear friend.

Once upon a time, there was a girl
A lonely abused, broken girl..
A girl,
Who every birthday
Just wished for a friend,
A girl,
Who cried herself to sleep every night
And woke up with a smile on her face the next morning
Because she had hope
Oh, so much hope
This girl, went to school every day
And got laughed at
Got told to "Go **** herself'..
Got told she was a "Stupid *****"
But she still had hope
Hope for a better day tomorrow..
Even though she had no friends
And never has really had any
Is always laughed at
And called names, sometimes by the people she loves most
She would sit in her room
Hoping for hours
For things that never came
Like a friend
Mainly that's what this girl thought about
For years it was the only thing on her mind
On her foolish, immature, idotic, mind
But eventually after all those  years
Of thinking, and hoping and wishing
All those ******* years full of hope
She ran out..
Ran out of her precious hope..
And now,
Only now, This girl realizes that there are, and never will be a happy ending for her.

Fly away little bird
You mean so much to me
Fly away, fly so far
You're finally free
It's okay little bird
Just stretch your wings and fly
It doesn't matter, that when you're gone you're lover will surely die
Just soar through the wind
Without a care in the world
It's okay now, because your feelings for her have unfurled
So fly away little bird
I assure you, it will all be okay
Even though this bird will never find another way
Loving you
Little bird, is all she knows how to do
And as much as she trys
She knows you can't learn to fly, and love her too.

You* put me into the hospital
Then call me selfish
You make my arm bleed
And then call me self destructive
But are  you  that blind..
That you don't realize you did all of this
Because of  you
I was in the hospital
Because of  you  I'm "self destructive"
Because of how much I cared
About   you
I almost died
Sure, I used to be self destructive
And yes I do have scars on my wrist
But  you  might as well,  Have made them yourself
After all the ****  you  did to me
Me caring about you
Doesn't make me
"Very selfish"
If anything it makes me very selfless
I stuck around so long
And found more excuses to stay by your side
When everyone else told me  you  were no good
When everyone else told me to leave
I couldn't leave you when you needed me most
Because I'm not like you..
I'm not a selfish person
And when you started lying
I stayed..
Even though I was breaking at the seams
I still held on to  you
And that was my mistake
And I'm sorry..
I'm so sorry
That you think I'm such a bad person for trying to help  you Always thinking of you, for caring and giving a **** when no one else would..
Staying up all night and crying
About you
About  your foolish actions
Like stepping into my life
Like making me care..
Even after what happened..
Michael
I can't stop my feelings, for you
Even though you're a narcissistic *******..
I can't save this heart
From the damage
That you caused
When I gave you my heart so willingly
So foolishly..
And you crushed it
In the hands that I wanted to hold so badly
It was all done by The only person in this world I ever wanted to love..
"You're beautiful"
"Ily"
"I promise"
It was all *******
Pointless
Meaningless
Lies..
And it's not my fault
That you have problems
It never was
Because
I'm only human..

Maybe when I'm on the news
And the headlines tell the world I'm dead..
Maybe you'll keep your mouth shut
For the other girls you use..
Spare there lifes..
When you didn't care enough to spare mine
I thought you would understand considering that you're depressed to
But no
Instead of telling people the truth
You lie, And I understand because that's all you know how to do..
But the fact that I gave you what you wanted
And you play me like a fool..
Because you couldn't keep your mouth shut
You couldn't stop the narcissistic behavior for just one day
And I
just don't know what to do anymore
And I'm so embarrassed.
After what you did
Even if there not laughing at me
I still don't want you to be hurt
Because everyone's laughing at you..
What you said, sure it hurts
News flash, I still really care about you
But don't blame me, if I don't have the strength to see you again
To return your smiles
Or say yes to your desires
It's too late now
For everything
For hope
For us
For me.