Was on my knees I abandoned all hope
Spiralling down from the third was at the end of my rope
Yet I trudging on through out the mire
Struggling yet I wasn't even at the bit of the fire
Down from the second I was dragged down to the first
Misery depression and suicidal thoughts
But somehow I realised this feeling could not get any worse
Then I accepted within myself that things were not with the blame of others
Though it was dark and scary I clawed and scratched for the faintest glimmer of hope
That was enough to see the faintest glimmer of light
Oddly enough giving me second sight
I turned the headlights within and looked at what I had been avoiding
The truth is it was me the lessons I had to learn,but all the while free will will determine
The lessons I had to learn
To become awoken I first had to be broken
Back to the second I looked upon forgiving and forgetting
Back up to the third but  no longer looking for anyone to blame,still was hurting but my outlook was not the same

Every child is an artist u till he or she is not
The greatest part of our inner beings tends to be forgot
To connect with the child,our innocence,unconditional love
Was the gift from our higher self who resides in the stars above
From Gaia to the stars
Your hopes and dreams may seem lost and forgotten
And all is falling apart
Grab on to that faint glimmer of hope
And illuminate the dark
So forget hoping
And be knowing
That your dreams and abundant blessings and soon you will learn
It's not a matter of if but always a matter of when

Closure
                       John R Pettigrew
                    Owner of JRPTAROT
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                           JRPTAROT
        FAULDHOUSE INDOOR MARKET
                 1 BLACKFAULDS DRIVE
                       FAULDHOUSE
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                            EH479AS

So many people with so many questions
Not realising that each and every experience is just another lesson
You actually think that any answer gave
Will make it any easier in dealing with the pain
This seeking closure will stop you from moving on
Brushing the things coming up as just a feeling
But the simple fact is that it always leaves you reeling
Letting fear and resentment live rent free in your mind
Giving some narcissist continue to emotionally rob you blind
To deal with your past is to begin to let go
Looking within and letting the light within you flow
Stop looking outwith for the answers is key in this lesson
As every experience handled correctly could be todays blessing
When you let the anger in your tolerance will begin to wear thin
No more second guessing,the answers you seek lay within so clear your mind and let the abundant light of love within
When you look within you will gain deeper insight
To shed pride and ego
And bask in the glory of your wondrous light

I am a loving product of light
I am the star shining bright
I am remarkable I am unique
I am the intention of all you can be
I am the rain that allows life to grow
I am the ocean that runs deep and keeps the earth spinning in the moonlit glow
I am the stars that illuminate the night
I am the intuition that gives second sight
I am the sun that will light up the day
I am the star constellation that will allow you to navigate your way
When the sun goes down and the light of day fades
I was created in the image of divine source light
I entered through the silver gate to live as man
Knowing at that time what was my plan
The path I had chosen was to be broken to awaken
Heading for the home I know I belong
Knowing I have to be brave and bold
Seeking out that gate of gold
It is written in the stars and this soul originated in Erra
Here to try and help bring the world together
Wether rain or hail,day or night
I forever am
Universal Loving Light

John R Pettigrew
31/10/2016
Owner of
JrpTarot
Fauldhouse Indoor Market
1 Blackfaulds Drive
Fauldhouse
West Lothian
Scotland
United Kingdom
EH47 9AT
Facebook.com/JrpTarot