Last time I wrote about you it was an ode of letting go
A release of what once was, what I thought would never be again
Though this life has its many surprises and seeing you again is surely one of them
When I think of you lover from distant lands my belly does a snap crackle pop
Yet I'm wary of my minds expectations, it's day dreams of a life together
I listen to my body, I feel how it reacts to the thought of you, of your smile, of your sparkling lake centred eyes
And I'm taken to a body of bliss
A place of joy and play
of life and love
Oh mind, I beg of you please let's live in the moment and leave what will be to the place of distant dreams.

You left me twice
You had your chance
Twice.

Thank you for that.
For the cavernous hole of rejection
The bursting of our illusion  
The ripping down of  future projection

I had imagined your departure (the second one) would cause a tidal wave of despair to drown me in tears
Yet no,
Three months on and I stand more than strong
I stand free
I stand more me

Thank you,
For the way in which you shouded me in self uncertainty
For this allowed the space for me to follow my dream
And living it now I am
Thank you for leaving (twice) past lover from distant lands