i wanna fall in love in october
so we can have a song written by girl in red
and pretend it was for us

but i'm falling and you're not

bad idea! - girl in red

It was a bad idea calling you up
Was such a bad idea 'cause now I'm even more lost
It was a bad idea to think you were the one
Was such a bad idea 'cause now everything's wrong
You put your hands under my shirt
Undid my bra and said these words
"Darling, you're so pretty, it hurts"
You pushed me up against my wall
Threw my clothes down on the floor
"Darling, are you ready for more?"
It was a bad idea calling you up
Was such a bad idea, I'm totally ******
It was a bad idea to think I could stop
Was such a bad idea, I can't get enough
It was a bad idea meeting you so late
Was such a bad idea 'cause I can't think straight
It was a bad idea to bring you back home
Was such a bad idea, I need to be alone
You put your hands under my shirt
Undid my bra and said these words
"Darling, you're so pretty, it hurts"
You pushed me up against my wall
Threw my clothes down on the floor
"Darling, are you ready for more?"
It was a bad idea calling you up
Was such a bad idea, I'm totally ******
It was a bad idea to think I could stop
Was such a bad idea, I can't get enough
Bad idea, bad idea
Bad idea, bad idea
You put your hands under my shirt
Undid my bra and said these words
"Darling, you're so pretty, it hurts"
You pushed me up against my wall
Threw my clothes down on the floor
You said "Darling, are you ready for more?"
It was a bad idea calling you up
Was such a bad idea, I'm totally ******
It was a bad idea calling you up
Was such a bad idea, I'm totally ******
It was a bad idea to think I could stop
Was such a bad idea, I can't get enough

You didn't know what was best
You pushed me around like the rest
Deceptive, condescending
The secrets unending
Determined to run my life
Then leave me to deal with the strife
Until everything fell apart
I fell, weighed down by a broken heart
When I thought everything was lost to me
You held out your arms and caught me

You told me that
I could fly
All I had
to do was try
With your guidance
I made it through
All that time
looking up to you
No one else
understood me
But you brought out
the best in me

Everything got harder
but you pushed me farther
You kept me on the right path
even when I was stabbed in the back
Then you left and I had to make do
But I still didn't need to live without you

I was in trouble
Nowhere to go
Out of options,
but not alone
When darkness fell
You stood tall
You smiled at me,
then you were gone
It's been an honor
to be your friend
You said to me
at the end

I can't see the path, I'm lost
By the storm and winds, I'm tossed
I asked what I should do
I wondered what you would do
Mistake after mistake
It was too much to take
Then I almost died
and imagined you at my side
I knew then just what you'd say
Help them out; show them the way

Step by step,
I'm on my way
Moving forward
every day
I'll keep an eye on
those who need me
Using the strength
that you taught me
I'll make you proud
I've got to try
Because of you
I know I can fly

I used to be weak and small
All I ever did was fall
I wanted a fairy tale
Even though I always fail
I think I can do it

It was hard at first
I must've been the worst
But I made friends who showed me
I had the strength inside me
I could be strong

They hadn't given up on me

Day by day, I got stronger
A victim no longer
I could smile and help others
My friends, like sisters and brothers
I was always there for them

But a monster crept inside
Divided us with her lies
Everyone could see it, but I was blind
So I left them behind
I turned my back on them

But I haven't given up on them

All alone, I can't find my way
I listened to lies and hate
A better world I sought
But with my friends I fought
I don't blame them for leaving me

When finally I'd woken up
I realized that inside I was broken up
I did what I could to make it right
I tried so hard to stop the fight
But too little too late

My friends had given up on me

I found comfort with so few
I found myself unable to
Understand why anyone should care
Why anyone would dare
Get too close to me

I thought someone might try
But it was all another lie
Betrayed by my last friend...
No.  Wrong again.
I still have a few friends

They haven't all given up on me

I broke out of my trance
And gave him another chance
I showed him a better way
I saw him change day by day
He wants to change too

I set him free
He sided with me
Against his family
Against society
Now he's dead because of me

But my friends haven't given up on me

It's hard to see the light
Struggling to do what's right
But I'm not a traitor anymore
I'm going to help stop this war
I can keep moving forward

I'm going to get stronger
Crying no longer
Because now I know
I don't have to go it alone
Sometimes, even the best need help

I haven't given up on me

(Toad)
I never knew how to be strong
I always thought there was something wrong
with me, but she made me see
And now the only person who believed in me
is gone

(Moon)
I believe in you too
I only wish I knew what to do
I'm always too confused
To be of any use
But I'll try to be here for you

(Both)
Now it's up to us
Our friends won't even discuss
The possibility
of hostility
We're drifting alone in the dark
But there's still a small spark
of hope

(Toad)
You ran away
I only wish you'd say
Why you did it
I could've stopped it
I'll always be there to save
you

(Moon)
I don't want to be saved
I'm only trying to be brave
Like you and my sister
I want to stop something sinister
Before it's too late to save
you

(Both)
You're my everything
But you won't tell me anything
I only want to help you,
I can't live without you
We're drifting apart in the dark
But there's still a small spark
of hope

(Moon)
I dreamed about you today
I wish I had the courage to ask you to stay
But I don't know if I'm strong enough
My world is just too rough
And I don't know if I can find my way
anymore

(Toad)
That woman that took your eyes
I swear that I'll be her demise
I know she's coming
But I'm not running
There will be no more cries
anymore

(Both)
We were put to the test
and though we tried our best
We couldn't win alone
But we're not alone
We're drifting together in the dark
So there's still a small spark
of hope

(Moon)
You saved my life by giving yours
Trapped behind closed doors
I can still hear your voice
So I'm making my choice
I'm drifting alone in the dark
But I've still got a small spark
of you

I used to believe in you
You always knew what to do
When the world was black as the night
You held out your hand and said it's alright
You said "I'm always here for you"

But then before my very eyes
The world was stained red by your demise
All alone you've left us
With no one to defend us
Poisoned by the snake and its lies

Those days that shone gold like the sun
The days of laughter, the days of fun
It took them from us with its scheming
And its silver fangs are still gleaming
All I want to do is run

When you finally returned
It wasn't long before I learned
You weren't the same as before
You're on another side of this war
What we had was scattered and burned

There's no one else but me
That can stop the coming tragedy
I have to choose a path ahead
Before we all wind up dead
Why does it have to be me?

Red like roses, black as the skies
Our blood now spills, our innocence dies
I don't want this to be how it ends
But you've taken so many friends
Their screams erased the lullabies

And now, my love, all we have left are goodbyes