I've given my all
to nothing
and nothing to
what was really
my all.
it goes unforgiven
to be weak here
I learned.
all live to ****
because no one wants
to die.
so I wonder
if this is
how it'll be in five
years.
or is this a phase
where everything
touched or touched by
is a piercing
blow.
before & after.

last night
I walked out
& about.
three in the morning
to see a thin girl
on a 3rd story balcony,
just gazing out.
she was attractive;
her first mistake.
and sobbing.
and she had smeared
eyeliner down
her face,
staining her tee.
she didn't mind
the rain,
or the wind,
or the solitude.
and for sometime
after
I wondered
"why?"
so later I'd realize
really,
"why not?"
I'm walking in the
rain at three AM.

anyways.

breathe without wheezing
while you can.
drive across
the world while
your feet allow you.
love without fighting
while it's young.
enjoy the woman
who held you forever
after
9 months
while she lives.
and never forget
where you started
before breathing turned
to wheezing.