Shi Em: Poems

Apr 2019 · 1.0k

loop

Shi Em Apr 2019

loop

it's hard knowing that
i'll wake up tomorrow
wanting the day to end

Apr 2019 · 238

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Shi Em Apr 2019

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i hate that i am broken,
and i don't even know where to start fixing me

Mar 2019 · 189

i miss feeling what it truly meant to be happy.

Shi Em Mar 2019

i miss feeling what it truly meant to be happy.

Feb 2019 · 139

2am thoughts

Shi Em Feb 2019

2am thoughts

and the sad thing was that
i was too busy learning about life
that I never had the chance to live it as I should.

Jan 2019 · 135

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Shi Em Jan 2019

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If I could do it all over again,
I'd still choose to have my heart
taken by you
no matter how many times its
bound to break

Jan 2019 · 301

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Shi Em Jan 2019

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you promise you'd let me
see the sunrise,
but you didn't tell me
that you'd leave with the moon

Jan 2019 · 99

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Shi Em Jan 2019

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it's hard to stop yourself
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°  .  even see the water nor the waves
   you're supposed to be
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Jan 2019 · 146

i will love you until the last i love you means good bye

Shi Em Jan 2019

i will love you until the last i love you means good bye

Dec 2018 · 157

in this city of love, i taught myself to live alone;

Shi Em Dec 2018

in this city of love, i taught myself to live alone;

be
cause
you never
should have
brought me to paris
if you had no plans of
staying in the first place.

Dec 2018 · 221

and you know maybe i'm just a sad soul, longingly searching for just a bit of love

Shi Em Dec 2018

and you know maybe i'm just a sad soul, longingly searching for just a bit of love

Dec 2018 · 162

"i don't want to go yet,"

Shi Em Dec 2018

"i don't want to go yet,"

i say as i watch my childhood
disappear in front of my eyes

take me back take me back take me back take me back take me back take me back take me back take me back take me back

Dec 2018 · 537

and after every pain that you had me go through, it's still you and it will always be.

Shi Em Dec 2018

and after every pain that you had me go through, it's still you and it will always be.

Dec 2018 · 167

12/13/18; 11:19pm

Shi Em Dec 2018

12/13/18; 11:19pm

"and if you ever find me lost", she said
"tell them to find me at sea, because that is where my soul will surely be."

Dec 2018 · 135

things i find hard to accept [1]

Shi Em Dec 2018

things i find hard to accept [1]

sometimes i find myself
slipping into the brink of insanity,
it feels like all it takes
is one last push
before I break completely.

help me.

Nov 2018 · 134

11.24.18

Shi Em Nov 2018

11.24.18

I have laid out my canvas for you
thinking you filled it with colors
when you only made it blue

Nov 2018 · 459

11.19.18

Shi Em Nov 2018

11.19.18

the hardest part about meeting you was saying goodbye,
but i promise you that these tears will soon dry;
because i know someday we'll meet again,
when the spring breeze blows;
when the winter wind comes to an end.

Thank you for the 1.5 years of music, laughter, comfort and joy. Even when the petals are scattered, in my heart you are still whole.

Nov 2018 · 134

short story [1]

Shi Em Nov 2018

short story [1]

“You’re a good man.” He said while leaving.

And I stood there as a tear fell down my eyes. I had left my home because I was unbecoming more and more myself each day. I was afraid that the evil inside had completely swallowed me whole so I ran away. Leaving, thinking I was the devil, and yet here he was – a stranger, telling me that he sees something good left in me that remained, and my heart hurts because I wanted nothing more than to believe him.

Oct 2018 · 1.6k

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Shi Em Oct 2018

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They say pain hurts the most when it comes
knocking on our doors unexpectedly,
but I would beg to differ.
The most painful type of pain
takes years to cultivate.
it is when we,
for some reason
become so used to it
to the point that we become numb,
turning into statues of empty souls
dressing up as humans.

Oct 2018 · 159

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Shi Em Oct 2018

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No, but mamma
I am not just an echo
of who you used to be.

Oct 2018 · 89

part one: the thing about truth

Shi Em Oct 2018

part one: the thing about truth

is that no matter how much you wish for it to become a lie, it never will be.

and no, there is not going to be a part two, it is just what it is and what it will forever be, a part of a poetry unfinished.

Oct 2018 · 174

and in the end, all that was left for them were

Shi Em Oct 2018

and in the end, all that was left for them were

words, words, and words.
both therapeutic and toxic,
dark and bright,
empty and full,
their beginning and their end,
words.

Oct 2018 · 95

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Shi Em Oct 2018

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There will be better days
and everything will turn out
to be okay.
Someday.
Yes, soon it will be.
I know that for sure.

-but for the meantime, it is going to be a very long and painful wait.

Just hold on a little while longer.

Sep 2018 · 866

08.31.18; 8:05pm

Shi Em Sep 2018

08.31.18; 8:05pm

all these words that
I have left unsaid,
will forever haunt me dead.

Sep 2018 · 96

oh and I hope you know that

Shi Em Sep 2018

oh and I hope you know that

i never truly minded having
these aches
if it were to mean that my
heart was still beating.
i would still prefer this over
most days where I feel like
my soul has been ****** out
of everything.

so at the very least -
thank you for reminding me that
my soul still resides
in this body that you've left
hanging with nothing to bleed
out but words.

Sep 2018 · 120

06/08/18; 11:51am

Shi Em Sep 2018

06/08/18; 11:51am

i want to be
the kind of poetry
that ignites a flame
in other people's heart,
like the way you did mine

Aug 2018 · 153

but i am so afraid that the time will come wherein i would feel nothing,

Shi Em Aug 2018

but i am so afraid that the time will come wherein i would feel nothing,

because only by then
would this seem so real;
that though I am alive,
my soul no longer rests here.

and what's more terrifying
is that I know that
the time I fear most
is slowly coming.

Aug 2018 · 353

08-05-18; 8:59am

Shi Em Aug 2018

08-05-18; 8:59am

when i was a child;
i would wake up excited
for the days to come;
for what it had to offer;
but these days,
I'd rather choose to
drown myself to sleep
than to face my tragedy
of a reality;

and I'm scared that if
this continues any longer,
I would end up fading
sooner or later.

Aug 2018 · 227

and I guess for him, I was his best sculpture;

Shi Em Aug 2018

and I guess for him, I was his best sculpture;

for every carving that he made unto my skin,
it bled out words that turned the spotlight
unto him;
and each and everyday,
my identity would grow thin,
was I really who I am,
or just a sculpture that his hands held
in between?

Aug 2018 · 314

05-14-18; 1:37am

Shi Em Aug 2018

05-14-18; 1:37am

I didn't want to fool myself
but my mind was a traitor,
and I was its slave,
who was stupid enough to allow myself to be betrayed.

Jun 2018 · 162

06/09/18; 12:36am

Shi Em Jun 2018

06/09/18; 12:36am

but would the world
believe these good intentions
if you've already been
labaled to as someone
with a bad reputation?

Jun 2018 · 115

the irony, i guess.

Shi Em Jun 2018

the irony, i guess.

i write short poetries,
because I am so tired
of keeping these feelings for so long.

Jun 2018 · 1.5k

you ask who you are to me, and this is my reply (though you'd never get to read this anyway)

Shi Em Jun 2018

you ask who you are to me, and this is my reply (though you'd never get to read this anyway)

you are the draft
of my poetries
that I have kept hidden.
you've taught me how to render
all these feelings to be unspoken.

you are the song
by which the octave
of my voice can't reach;
and yet I still try to sing you in secrecy.

you are the art
that my simple mind
can't seem to understand
but it's okay, because I feel you
and that's what gives these emotions
an infinite ampersand.

you are all these,
and yet to me, you are still nothing.
because in this life, that is all we are, and is all what we are ever going to be: nothing.

and I - although it hurts, have learned the hard way on how to accept that.

#you #me #nothing

Jun 2018 · 149

05/18/15; 07:40pm

Shi Em Jun 2018

05/18/15; 07:40pm

the demons;
the scars;
they are all real,
yet they seem to say
that they are only
living inside her head.
they say that insanity
has got the best of her,
when in truth:

it was reality that drove her under.

I found this poem that I wrote back in the day, so I decided to post it. Still the truth though, up to this day.

but that's the thing about truth, isn't it?
it never changes, unless you will it.
and we never do.

May 2018 · 265

in comparison

Shi Em May 2018

in comparison

but I was the poetry
that you kept hidden;
whilst she was the song
you proudly sang out in the open.

May 2018 · 147

05-07-18; 2:52am

Shi Em May 2018

05-07-18; 2:52am

all my life, i have been
nothing but ordinary.
i guess for once, i wanted
to know what it felt like
to be special.

(Even if it's only for a while,
Even if it's only temporary.)

Mar 2018 · 99

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Shi Em Mar 2018

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but honey,
i knew that I was nothing
more than just your trophy
yet I let myself yearn for something more.

i deserve better than this.

Jan 2018 · 121

choice

Shi Em Jan 2018

choice

I didn't forget;
I just chose not to remember.

[an ode to my pending assignments and projects]

Jan 2018 · 83

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Shi Em Jan 2018

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do not be deceived with the illusion that I've painted;
you'd think I'd be the calm after the storm;
but inside this ball of sunshine,
I am nothing but a raging storm.

Dec 2017 · 557

12-11-17; 3:34am

Shi Em Dec 2017

12-11-17; 3:34am

"my life hang as a tightrope of words that I've created
along the way,
and you all stood there
as ring masters of this perfectly orchestrated circus;
smiling and clapping,
eyes never leaving as I took every step;
waiting for me to make one small mistake,
and I am excruciatingly trying so hard not to trip, not to fall,
but my feet are now sore, and I'm slowly losing my balance;
one can only take so much before they break, love.
and trust me, I'm about to."

Sep 2017 · 323

epilogue

Shi Em Sep 2017

epilogue

The sun and the moon meets;
the water and stream flows deep;
Like this feeling inside my heart that fleets;
Burning, my heart starts to reap;

And just like the eclipse;
people all stare with awe;
not knowing that time slowly slips;
by and by we cherish this last straw.

But even when no one can remember,
how we fought and grieved;
this love will never falter;
for it will always know how to forgive.

Aug 2017 · 301

triumph

Shi Em Aug 2017

triumph

now watch as I bleed out the words
that you've cut from my system;
watch me dig it out from the grave
that you buried me in;
stand and watch as I make a masterpiece
out of the chaos that you have created;
and let's see whose really losing.

This little one has been created because I got inspired by Taylor Swift's new song, Look What You Made Me Do. So yes.

#chaos #masterpiece #bleed #live #lose #win

Aug 2017 · 134

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Shi Em Aug 2017

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the world is a judge,
and I am the accused.
no trials were held.
but the verdict was guilty.

Aug 2017 · 230

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Shi Em Aug 2017