They call it chasing the dragon
Those addicted to drugs
But what do you call it
When you're addicted to love?
Those tingling sensations
Butterflies and temptations
Because baby you
You get me so high
The way I feel
Like its the first time

Drink until the scabs rub bare

It doesn't feel like it did before

But still I know it's there

Scar tissue tried forming

Never healed

The same old story

Year after year

Eyes dried

Skin tight

Waking upright

I guess I'm alive

Old man Jack slowly sips his life away
The same old worn out bar top
Swallows his lager with hate
The cracked protruding pavement
Walking home, dim lights guiding the way
To an empty apartment
A studio in disarray

Blame the ex wife
Blame the immgrants
But Jack will never change
Alcohol can make you tough
It's the American way

Living in dystopia
Living the American dream
Reality can be sobering
Loneliness is king

While the cities flood
The homeless drown
Technically distracted
People move on
Species die
But my iPhone recharges
Quiet ignorance
Evolutionary *******

The bones rot out from our faces
While we Socially isolate
Surface level understanding
Swallowed by earthquakes
The billion dollar stare
The American way

Living is dystopia
Living the American dream
Digitally dehumanized
Loneliness is king

Ignore the other
Reject your mother
Poison your brother
Together we suffer
Fat, sick and dying
Cull the black sheep
Genius is weak
It's the American way

Living in hell
Living in the modern world
Wealthy, mentally castrated, and high
Popping pills to stay alive
America on life support
While the whole world dies

You poke the ashes hoping for some heat
Your eyes fixate on the gray
But there is no red
Consuming cold
These coals have long been dead

There's nothing here but the corpse of a fire
But I'll smile for you
If that will keep you warm

You aim for everest
With only the skill to cross a hill
You wait for gold
When silver is handed to you
You **** your head, bewildered
Offended I'd reach out to you
A corpse sitting quietly
Ready to decay
Delay, postpone salutations
Till a ring would have no place to hang
Keep waiting on prince charming
No one wants the farmer
Every peasant girl is a princess
And every man is a pauper

The gusts were blowing
Our faces turned ice
Your hand was frozen
But so warm to touch
The leather burned cold
Though we were left buzzing
We were high, floating
From the heat just inside
Such a wonderful night
The strokes on canvass
Contrasted the world outside
But inside here, a little cabin
Your smile was fire
And your lips were flames
But I'd burn my mouth and blister
For another taste
Because next to you
I felt no cold
We make heat
You are bold
And as the gusts blow
Next to you is like paradise
Somewhere far
Somewhere warm

I'm incredible
Inedible
Unless you're a cannibal
Definitely bedible
To make some love
Stroke some rough
Give tough love
So bend over
Go forward
Close your eyes
And feign sober
Enjoy this moment
As I give you bliss

Blanket statements keep you warm
Silent and peaceful beneath
Safe from harm
There you dream
Black and white
Chromatic reason
You're a just adjudicator
The world full of sinners
Deliver your sentence
Without repentance
Burn the heretics at the stake
After all
Consider what's at stake
Justice for just us
Just as they deserve

Milk my mind for creative juices
Take a sip and be inebriated
Stumble and walk
Stutter and talk
Be transported
Your mind in another world
While your body falls short

Her crown reigns short
But stands out from among the trees
Her bark is soft
She is unmatched in beauty
When I drew near
Her flowers were clear
No shade of color worthy

When you found me
At my weakest
My front, at its strongest
Palisades erected
And your questions deflected
Yet now I long to be one with your form
Your words rained down
Golden arrows of sun
They bit and pierced
The layers off the wall
Your smile exposed me
And now I long to be one with your form
I don't think you're a mind ****
But you penetrated my brain
My thoughts now consumed by you
My words can do little to explain
But I long to be one with your form
Wrapped tightly around one another
With my lips for comfort
Embracing the night
Rowing in unison
Squeeze me with your limbs
I'll go much deeper
When your pulse quickens
And the milk thickens
We'll give birth to nirvana
And be consumed with each other

Darkness feels
From ear to ear
Cold and warm
Soft and numb
Flying freely into space
What have I become?

Stars pass through my eyes
And light exits through my brain
Time stands still in my ear
Tasting all the drops of rain
The world is upon me once again

And what are hearts?
Not meant to break
And what is love?
Not meant to take
Will someone please, walk me down this way?

The never-ending corridor
White walls
With infinite doors
No ceiling
And no floors

Walk with me, hand in mine
And show me where I can find time
My hand on the ****
Turn it for me and open wide
With your lonely key
You’ve kept inside

What a world behind this door
Hell or paradise
I’m not sure
Depression in expressive waves
Dimly lit and Fading away
Invoking all emotion
The motions law that you made
Gravity is something gray
My heart slows to a shallow beat
I pull the ground from my feet
And I find that no one is here but me

Love is a world far away
Passion exists only today
Chemical seduction
My body’s abduction
A natural imbalanced high
Give me my drug
And **** the pain
Straight from to vein
And to the brain
Addiction bleeds from the heart
Spilling out across the sea
The door opens from behind
And once again, I know me

Darkness feels warm and home
Alone in space again I go
Microcosm in my mind
The heart dies with the fading stars
The mind goes with each passing day
Alone to float across
An empty shell that once
One day maybe something more
Till you come out
And push me through the door

It's a familiar burn

Callused skin is numb

I keep touching it

expecting a different outcome

And is it me or them?

Who to blame

I can only give what I concieve

This thing they call love

I know no other

Beneath the bruises and scars

My fingertips still reach out to touch

What I give, I give fully

And perhaps that is my folly

I'll sever the skin left bare to feel

No exposure, no more

My art is dead
Void of life
Impassionate
Do not support this
It's lazy
Lathargic
Empty

I'm a drug dealer
You can find me on the street
At the corner
Did you break something carelessly?
Come get your fix
I've got something for you
It's the latest obsession
To millions of kids
Just keep your head down
Don't take your eyes off this
This will help you stay social
Even if you're feeling depressed
It's immersive
A unique quick fix
It'll get your fingers shaking
Phantom tingles in your leg
Dopamine from a screen
It's the new iPhone X

Passion is a well well fracked
Keep pumping
But the earth is dry
There's not enough for tears
Not enough for life
The clay is baked
The shape is set
Your attempts form cracks
But the expression remains
Look into my eyes
Pottery glazed
Underneath I pray for rain

I'm an alien
I don't speak
I'm an alien
Communication weak
I'm an alien
Distant beside you
Misunderstood and invisible
Not hostile
Somewhat gullible
Abduction is seductive
Or a huge turn off
Known only to few
From a world of one
I'm just an explorer
Touring you

I love the way you envelope me
Like a blanket on a cool night
You protect me from a cold breeze
Because you comfort me
No liquid fire
No fiery herbs
Just the warm embrace of nothing
Calcium infused collagen
Guide me into sleep
Awake is a nightmare
Relax me
Slow to breathe
What is left is insignificant
What is forward doesn't matter
Legacies are earned
Not worth a stain to be remembered
Understanding would flatter
Am I mad?
I look forward to the answer

There's a fire that dances
Whimsical and true
Encased in flesh
Quite beautiful

The flames burst from brown
Wide open in white
Everything she touches
Burst forth with life

Tempered by heart
Twice as warm as the flames
But raging with vitality
That nothing can tame

I gazed into this fire
Amazed with wonder
I danced to her tune
I felt the hunger

Laid open and bare
The fires consume
But I'd turn to ash with her
And smile in the plumes

I'm not a word smith
I don't strike iron
But irony strikes me
Pretty peculiar
The lines I give birth to
Full of wisdom
Yet I don't heed
I craft my rhymes with a whittling knife
Form a pencil, stab myself in the heart, then write
I bleed on to this canvas
With each beat squirting splatter
You could finger paint a red Picasso
But face it, your frame can't hold this much gray matter

I'm an Android
But not as smart
My brain is void
Here's a gift
Please love me
I don't know how to feel
But I know I love you
The circuits fire
Metal skin perspires
Rusty muscles give life
To vestigial programs
Boot my heart
My CPU flutters
I'm just a metal man
A tin can that shakes hands
I smile, while processing your desires
I wish had the light
That spark of life
The comprehension of human dimension
But my domain remains plastic
Metal and silicone
But I'll overload my circuits
It's worth it
Just to feel you

She, with her plastic intention
Sweet smell, and rancid thought
Ran her finger from her lip
Her ******* tangle
Legs spaced at the knee
And her Her hair in a dangle
Penetrating eyes, that overcome my doubt
Perfect curves, image of fruit
Juicy and ripe, and ready to burst
Though sweet, it is sour
Though disturbing, so tempting
On hands and knees she crawls to me
Eyes never move
Heart cannot beat
Still locked, her hand now on me
I fall to the ground
And fall twenty feet
Her blanket around my brush
My hand in her touch
The red pair comes closer
They slip onto my face
I fall once more, into outer space
A wild vine grows rapidly around us
In the silence we scream
In our breath we roar
In my mind I forget
I release my reason
She is real
If not for another time
Just to exist right now
Stripped of my mind
Stripped to my body
Entangled in her roots, to rest the night
And to fuse, lose my sight
Make a river run down us
And never turn up soil
Get buried under it
And stay
In me, away
Her intention
Such devious intentions
Will I forget
Or fall down again

The eyes pass
Flicker
Don't stare into the sun
I'll burn a hole straight through
Your aversion
*******
I might as well be a ghost

The Sampaguita Bloom

That soft aroma

It encased me for days

Kept locked in your aura

The flickering candle

Kindling in your eye

The pink curve

That beauty, called your smile

It lingers here

A memory forever

The future now

Who knows what will whether?

I'm on the borderline
Of inspiration and suicide
Can I change my life?
Or leave an ugly corpse

Yes, my lady
That shadow is gone
The slipping silhouette
Real light shines through
Radiating the truth
I **** my head away
My eyes shrink
And belly aches
I held it in
Released it yesterday
Time not defined
For it is nothing
Yes, I do
You aren’t worth my tears
My biggest fears
You cover your self in ***** truth
Deception
Contraception
I speak your language well

What's the cost?
A compaynionship
I bet it's too much

You may not understand my words

But you can read my eyes

What is lost in translation

Can always be seen in my smile

Your hand in mine

My heart rises high

And it's a simple thing to say

What other words could phrase

That I'm lost

I'm falling in love

And no language can separate

I know you're out there
You visit in sleep like a tooth fairy
You stalk chimneys, a saint in the night
You live somewhere between fairy rings and neverland
You work somewhere between daydreams and reality
I know you're real
You must be
My belief gives you life
I light your eyes
I imagine your smile
I live somewhere between your skin and heart
I work somewhere you can never be
I know you are more than a daydream
But why are you just a fantasy?

I'm a well adjusted maniac
Balancing life, mid panic attack
Frantically calm, repulse, attract
Kiss you
Shoot you in the face and laugh
Issue?
No I don't have any issues
Except for highlights and Hooked on Homicide
And subscriptions to prescriptions
For the conformally normal guy
Processing correctly
Intel inside

Speak with your eyes
Wrinkles on your face
Hints of a smile
Or signs of disgrace
Stay away
For safetys sake
Keep your distance
Choices to make
The space we notice
The feet make us aware
Every person a pariah
With tender love
We care

Fall into the water
A puddle, a mile to go
Sinking ever faster
Time passing slow
A sea of eccentricity
Of Uncertainty

Apprehension eased
Approaching bottom
The surface to a world forgotten
A stone staircase compells you
Descend

Every floor, a door to what could be
What could have been
Every possibility
Looking out on a relationship that never was
The dog you never had
The skill you never learned
Or an unforseen fad
Homeless
A billionaire
Hopeless
Dispear
A family
Alone
An artist
An accountant
A scientist
Or a poet

Ascend
Swim
Break the surface
Wake up

Hello
Did you have a moment to read?
For what are words if not heard?
And what are lines if not seen?

I just wanted to share my disappointment
It's been haunting all my dreams
But this is real now
And reality feels bleak

I'm just a coward
Who can't find the words to speak
So I hide behind my pretty lines
Using metaphors and similes

To euphemize this euthanasia
The euphoric must be beat
Throw away those hopes of mine
And all the memories

Time to say goodbye
I'd learned to fly
But you,
You clipped my wings

Let me register
Mechanical or electronic
Make motions
Or Fire synapses
Cause I'm about to cash out.

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A shadow that speaks
A shadow that reeks.
Keep your head down, darling
You're better a memory

Another year
Another fear
My mind closer to perfection
My body falls apart
Atrophy and enlightenment
The heart pumps
The brain stumbles
Knowledgeable
Fallable
My fragile home

Libate, gyrate with me
Simple motions
Complex moans
Lubricate my soul

The Stains are memories
The frame has marks
The springs buckle
The wood no longer whole

Blurs in the night lite
Four arms
Four legs
Spread cotton and lace

****** to my pain
Your touch is numb
It calms my mind
The rush of empty bliss