I am not sure what to think or
Feel anymore.
Everyone keeps talking like
I am not in the room.
Hiding the pain holding back
The tears.

While they say.
It's just an act.
She needs to snap out of it.
She needs to get up and
Get on with it.
She needs a push.

I wish I was normal.
I wish I didn't feel like this.
I wish that I wasn't so
Broken.

I wish I wasn't the embarrassment
They see me as.
I wish the suffering in my head
Would stop.
I wish they knew how feels to
Be broken.

None wants to be broken.
None choose to be depressed.
It's feelings you have no control over.

I choose to be alone.
Burying my pain in lines of poems.
Crying where I can't be seen.

depression.
Is not an act you can stop.
It's not a feeling you can control.
It's a life long battle.

To me.
I am broken and trying hard to
Be happy and get through
The day.

To everyone else.
It just an act I am nothing more
Than an attention seeker.

I am no angel.
Crossed many lines.
Made mistakes.
Learned lessons.
I am a poet.
Not a lair.

I don't have all the answers.
I will make mistakes.
I will get things wrong.
But i have a heart that's big
As the ocean.
I am only human.

I blame you.
For the dreams that died.
For the love that i will never have.
For the smile that you took from me.
I wanted to fly far away but you
Burnt my wings keeping me
In the cold darkness.
I blame you for killing me.

I don't know...
What love is only because I have
Never been shown it by anyone.

I don't know...
How to trust anyone when its
Been broken so many times.

I don't know...
How where my life is going either
Not every question has an answer.

If.
Every poem was happy would
It sound the same.
If.
Everything was peaceful would
The world be a better place.
If.
You had everything you ever wanted
Would you truly be happy.
If.
You could go back to that happy moment
In time would you do it.

How do you stop the rain from falling
And hearts from breaking?.
How many frogs do you have to kiss
Before you find the Prince.

The first impression is the
Real impression.

I am constantly inspired.
By the poems posted.
By the way they speak.
By the way the words are written.
By the way no feeling is the same.
By the way inspiration is all around us.

Do you die trying while known
That glory is close?.
What if neither your head or
Your heart are right?.
Is there really an in between or
Does it have to be all or nothing?.

Normal I am not broken I am.
The pills don't work they never do.
A mind that is dull and numb.
Can't feel can't think.
Words that are never heard.
I stopped crying long ago.

The day finally came when your
Name didn't make me smile
Anymore.

When night falls that's when the worrying thoughts starts.
I am good enough?.
I am trying so hard to open to up
But none listens to me.

I am trying really hard to be normal.
I am trying to man up as they keep
Telling me to do.
Fighting the darkness in my own head.

Waking up to the tired questions.
Whats wrong with you?.
Your too loud.
Your too quite.
Why don't you come round anymore.

Your not smiling enough.
Your not talking enough.
Your not laughing enough.
You not doing it right.

You need to speak up more.
You need to listen.
Your just being selfish now.
Do this so I feel happy.

I am more broken than they think.
Night falls and fear takes over.
My chest tights.
My hearts starts to beat fast.

I am depressed because the ones who are meant to help me.
Are the ones who are hurting me the
Most.

People will always come into your
Life making you love them.
But it is how they leave that stays with you

I have been lied to let down
Stabbed in the back.
Talked about laughed at.
Judged by others.
Yet no one ever says it to my face.

Its okay to struggle and cry
But a better tomorrow is a day away.

I write in the candle light freeing
My heart of this heavy feeling.
No more do i love thee like i once did
Now its time to let go.

I came looking for help I got silence
And a cold shoulder.
Watching faces hide behind mask spinning a Web of lies.
In darker times I sat alone without
A hand to hold.
Why come to me now when I don't need you.

A stole a childhood a lost teenage
Youth a past I can't change.
You made me scared of everything
I felt angry and guilty for years.
I will not give you one more day of my
Life or space in my head.
Your words might still haunt me but
You never changed me.
Some day I will be free but I won't carry this hate anymore.

Whenever someone takes an
Interest in my work.
I watch as the anger rolls across
Your face.
Then the bullying starts my poems
Are stupid no one likes them.
You can always write better than me
Asking me if i am listening.
i can see the jealously turning you
Very green.
You told me if i don't stop writing
You make my life hell.
You bully me day and night but i will
Never stop writing.

It's late and I should be sleeping,
But the anxious thoughts won't let me.
I try to put a brave face on everything
And smile even when I am hurting.

I don't know why I feel this way or
Why I just feel like crying.
I can't always explain my thought when I don't understand them myself.

It's a beautiful day when all I want to do is just lock myself away.
I wish that I could feel so much different.

I wish the depression and anxiety would set me free.

A cry for help not heard.
I wish I could have stopped you
From hurting yourself.
I wish I could heal the cuts and make
Them go away.

Put down me I'll get back up stronger than ever.

Put me in darkness and I'll shine brighter than a star.


nothing you do or say can ever hurt me.

You will never break me

LIES! LIES! LIES!.
Being over fluttering to me Pretending
You where there for me.
You can't even tell the difference between being hurt and being mad
I was just a pawn.
Even now you smile as the tears
Roll down my eyes.
I don't care how beautiful you think you are, but if your heart is ugly
That makes you the ugly to.
You take pleasure from other peoples
Pain it gives you a high.
I have tried hard to find the good in you but i can't find it.

Look up and you will find me in the rainbow.
Look up and you will find me stars.
Look up and you will find me in the moon.
Look up and you will find me in the sun rise.
Look up and you will find me in the sun set.
We maybe worlds apart.
I am every where you look.
I am in very you song you hear.
I am all around you.
Just look and you will find me.

I saw the face of my bully sitting
In the street cup in hand,
Arms full of needles marks begging
For spare change.
Karma gets everyone in the end.

Let hate in swallow the poison destory
Life after life.
Cause as much pain as you dare tell lies make people cry.
While happiness is found and you watch as the world passes you by.
You'll be sitting alone unwanted and unloved.
Someday karma will bring you a kiss.

There's a demon that answers to my name.
She laughs at how I tie my hair up.
She laughs at what I see in the mirror.
She reminds me of the mistakes made.
She reminds me of the things I'll never be.
She never let's me be laugh or be happy.
When I cry she laughs louder.
How do you **** the demon she is lives inside of me?.

Awaken sense heighten pleasure.
Bodies entwined heart to heart.
Eyes closed every touch felt.
Slip your fingers in my hair.
Pull me closer than before.
kiss me like your losing me.
Kiss me like a vampire.

All i ever wanted,
Was a dad who would keep me safe
And tell me how proud he was.
But heaven must have ran out of good
Dads.

Me and the moon have late night conversations.
Reminiscing and swapping stories.
He tells me about his love for the stars and i show him, pieces of my broken
Heart.

I can think of nothing else but writing
My poetry on every Inch of your
Body using my lips.

A heart torn in two.
Dreams broken.
Lifes shattered.
No tears left to cry.
There's nothing to take.
Leaving on a train.
Never coming back.

When life gives you lemons.
Smile and make lemonade.

I am trying to write the pain
Away that keeps me awake.
I just want to sleep.

Be careful of the lies you tell
The lines you cross, and the
Wishes you make.

Sometimes everything in my life
Feels like one big maze.
Full of twist turns and mostly dead ends.

We are too busy.
Complaining.
Ranting.
Pointing fingers.
Judging people.
Acting selfish.
Being fake.
Wondering why life is so hard
Never trying anything.
Your looking answers.
But your finding nothing.
You are not clueless.
Your just not listening
To yourself.

Is the one thing that is worth dying for
Worth living for?.