How dare you give me pieces of you and take it back
make me fall so deeply and then drop me right on my ***.
Your words were velvet lies leaving your lips.
so soft and yet dangerous to my mental.
the back and forth, yes's and maybe's.
I constantly found validation for you and your ****.

How dare you walk into my life causing confusion
creating this allusion of this "love" that I believed.
causing my knees to weaken with just one kiss
so blind wearing loves glasses I could not see
that your heart never belonged to me...

How dare you exit the back door,
locking it behind you
desperately I searched for the key,
you buried it in the soil of another woman's garden.
trying to hold onto our love, our memories,
everything we could be.
slipped right through my fingers like water in the rain...  

how dare you, fool me into giving you my heart
when you knew you weren't capable of loving me...


Breeze ©

my pulse stops when our hands interlock
my palms sweat when i see you
my legs feel numb when we're intertwined
and i feel like my brain bounces off the walls
of my skull when you leave
i feel the withdrawal in my bones
but my heart knows that
you'll come back
tomorrow.

Immigrants, especially those who don't return,
create idealistic homelands.
They imagine that all their
Woes, hurts and indignities
Would not exist
in their imagined homeland.

In their minds, homeland
is in stasis.
The life they left is lingering
waiting for them to return.

They cast winter upon the ponds of their
homelands
And live lives skating over the surface
Each time coming closer to
shattering the illusion
and gasping
in the icy
waters
of change.

iii.

it doesn't matter
how i wear my body
anymore.
if i can't give you
a pleasant sight,
i can also eat
your eyes out for you.