i need to forget
you
how i needed you
more than anything
how to me
you meant everything
i need you to mean nothing
i want to forget
us
i want to fall
out of love

s.s

please
please tell me
when you move on
tell me you don't love me
please
so i can stop picturing
you calling me
kissing me
holding me
telling me you made a mistake
that you messed up again
please
please tell me
when you do
so i can move on too

s.s

a new boy told me i was beautiful as his eyes traced my body
i cringed at the words because his tongue didn't wrap them the way yours would

a new boy grinned at me when i approached as he spoke hello
i barely managed to smile back because his eyes didn't light up in the way yours would

a new boy hit my phone up trying talk about anything
i left it unopened because his conversation felt forced and he didn't speak the way you would  

any new boy could be good, this is true
but here i am uninterested
because they just aren't you

s.s

perhaps one day
our paths will cross
and we will sip coffee
as dark as my eyes
under blue skies
as light as yours
and we will reminisce
about the days
we were just dumb kids
falling in love
and how we tore it apart
destroyed each other
because you had no hope
and i was afraid
and we didn't want to get hurt
more than we were
and i'll laugh into my coffee
and sadly smile into your eyes
remembering
how ******* happy we were
imagining
how happy we could have been

s.s

it is strange to think
i will never again
taste love on your lips
trace your skin with more than my eyes
or ever call you mine

s.s

she used to get nervous to see him
with butterflies in her stomach
she felt alive

now butterflies feel like daggers
and she's nervous to face him
she feels dead inside

s.s

being around you
makes me feel
ecstatic and elated
yet
unfathomably forlorn
and undeniably broken

ironic isn't it?

s.s