I'm treated like a doll
Told to do this and that
And left alone to weep
But what hurts more
Is the realization that I was the puppet master

One night
I had a dream in black and white
in my view
was the boy I once knew
he used to bring me so much joy
but I realized he treated me like a toy
just seeing him I became so blind
as in fantasy he acted so kind
but when I awoke I came to see
what truly has become of me
laying in silence with my heart
hollowed out and torn apart

I drop the lemon soda
But the tears will not fall
in fear the ground will break
and my memories on the cement
my thoughts flowing through the air
as you stand where I left you,
the fizzing soda where I dropped it

I wish for the temporary love
Where it only last a night
The pleasure passes time
much better than thinking of him
My mistake
They are like cuts the saliva of the stranger's kiss could heal
or just soothe for a night
as they kiss my neck, my shoulder, the outline of my body
Only to wake up in the morning thinking of him