“We fight to hold on and we fight to let go.”
Do you know why things don’t usually fall into the right places? It is because the moment we’ve realized we have to fix everything, we’ve already lost them. We always have the chance to regret at sunsets, all in the end.
Someone once said, “Not all people who wander are lost, they just find their way to their happy place.” What if you’re also someone’s happy place? If you already found yours, how could they find theirs?
We all have the right to love and wishing to be loved back by someone we love. Here’s to reality: there’s no assurance that you can get back the love you just gave. In different kinds of relationships, there’s always called one-sided love. We love people that could be our forever but it was just a “could be”. Life never tells us if that person will stay or leave. Hint? We should just live by the moment yet, one of those saddest moments could be reading a heartbreaking message and realize, you’re too late; There’s nothing that could fix this. Worse is, she is already mended by someone else.
We all have that one person: omit maybe our first love or whatever you call that, but what’s important is the person changed us in a way we never expected. A person we love in spite of all those flaws; the person we’re always proud of even if she’s not the perfect one in her class; a person that gives assurance that we’re happy when we are with her; the person you think first in the morning and last before going to bed and yet, is also the person that gave us pain and the reason we can’t move on. She used to be your forever that ended for months or your 11:11 wish that never came true. Forever as for my opinion only exists because you’re in state of being in love or happy but believe me, you’ll say it’s nothing when you are heartbroken.
Love is the drug; pain is the withdrawal as what I’ve heard. You should have fought for that one special person even if it’s the same person who told you to give up. Everything has the possibility to fade, even true love. We can prevent it by taking care of it, not by giving up. At first, let’s fight for the thing that makes us happy but if the things that makes us happy isn’t making us happy at all, we all have the choice to carry on or give up. We must know when to fight and when to let go.
Pain could change a person even if not by one’s own choice, we just feel it especially in the way we treat others. There are different kinds of pain like the pain you felt when you tried to explain yet, she never believed in you; the pain you endured when she left; and the pain you endured seeing your treasure dug by another pirate.
Hatred because of pain is possible. We can always avoid that but there are circumstances- that all the good in you was ******-out by the people who hurt you. What’s worse is if you’re in the stage of severe depression, they should’ve help you cope with it but instead led you to a suicidal state. (It may be exaggerated but it is possible on how special those people are.) Never let hatred control you for it could hurt someone not only emotionally but also physically.
Feel the pain until it hurts no more. Even if you’re willing to get hurt over and over again to fix things, you’ll still get tired of being hurt knowing that you, who have done everything, don’t deserve this kind of pain, this kind of treatment. If you think you’ve done enough, let others be the judge. You actually didn’t lose them, they lost you. If you’ll lose yourself in the process, there would always be someone or some people like your true friends that will always put you back in the right path, all you have to do is find a little time, give yourself a break and continue life.
If you happen to lose a friend, just remember that not every friendship could last a lifetime but the pain of losing that person can. All you have to do is to deal with it. She will always be a lesson that we will carry throughout our journey. (More pain to come!)
We all have different choices in our life, as you chose to run and she chose to hide away until she never came back. We always have that good bye we never really meant to say. A good bye that could have been “Please go back, I’m waiting”, a “Let me have another chance” or a good bye that isn’t good at all.
a column for our school publication. I was drunk when I wrote it. excuse the grammar