I was a *****
When they told me that I “needed” to wear a bra in the third grade
like my eight-year-old body was too ****
And they would want things that they shouldn’t
Like it was my fault for being this way

I was a *****
The kind that got sent to the office for too short skirts and too much cleavage
Already guilty because I had hips and thighs and *****
And I was guilty of making them look of being big of taking up space
My body was an ugly indecent thing

I was a *****.
Not the ******* in the bathroom kind of *****.
Although, given the chance I might have been.
I was the kind of ***** that loved them seeing my body.
The kind of ***** that was great at ******* and better at stripping.

I was a *****.
I was the kind of ***** who faked ******* with the best of them.
Because watching them when they heard me, saw me, felt me coming.
Was unbelievable.
It was empowering.

I was a *****.
I did what they asked because it made me feel like I was worthwhile.
It made me feel like I was valuable.
It made me feel like the pits in my heart had finally been filled.
It made me feel like he didn’t leave me when I was eight months old.

I was a *****.
I pawned myself out like answers to the history test.
Because he smiled.
Because he was the kind of boy that made you want to say yes, yes, YES
And I did what I wanted.

I was a ***** because I couldn't say no,
Yell no
Scream no
Whisper no
When his hands twinned around my wrists like handcuffs keeping me there in the silence

I was a *****
Because even though his hands were touching me
I was too afraid to say so
Too afraid of it all falling apart
Too afraid of being the thing that broke it

I am a *****.
Because you don’t stop being one.
Just because you learn that *** is more than a strategic move.
Because you see the scars it’s leaving.
Because you finally start to hear your broken heart.

I am a proud *****.
I refuse to be ashamed.
My “number” is a badge of honor I wear right above my *****.
Because being a ***** takes refinement

I’m taking it back one word at a time.

*****.
*****.
******.
***.
*****.
****.
****.
Daddy Issues.

I am a *****.
But now I’m the kind of ***** that backs away when it starts to hurt.
When they get rough.
When they bite too hard.
When I can’t hold back the tears anymore.

I am the kind of *****, who stopped giving.
Giving *******,
Giving it up,
Giving little pieces of myself,
Giving a **** what you think

I am a *****,
My ****** is singing rally songs and yelling protest chants
It’s wearing a sticker that says “I voted”
It running around barefoot in a sundress with nothing holding it down
And it’s backing me up in every fight

So call me a *****,
Because I’m the kind of ***** who won’t stop fighting until **** is always, always, always a crime.
The kind of ***** who will never be afraid to say no again.
I’m the kind of ***** that’s going to tear down your patriarchy one ******* brick at a time.
And I won’t stop until I am ****** and aching on the ground where it once stood.

The                      Grand Canyon is      a
massive prehistoric            snooch  
[there are larger & greater snooches
below the deep green sea]             &
the Great Yellowstone    Geyser,
one     of nature's many wonderful  *****;
[spraying when aroused, hot & aromatic]
so many        volcanoes,          monsoons  
&           soft, white mountains &   puffy pink
                                                  sunlit mounds
                          tsunamis breaking
like acne during      an       ******;
ur            many wars &

massacres                      only so many fleas;
meretrix fastidio [*****]       hôr   scortum,      
                                      of a               *****
noun: a *******.   Each room is occupied
by girls like me,  girls from broken homes;
**** victims, prostitutes,  and ******...
verb (of a woman) work as a *******:
she spent her life  ******* for dangerous   men
synonyms: work as a *******, sell one's body,
sell oneself,    be on the streets
Synonyms:      noun  *******,
****, harlot, working girl, bawd,
coquotte, fancy woman      /      verb:
work as a *******,   sell one's body,
**** around
sell oneself, be on the streets;
use prostitutes,            *****
It felt good to have someone   on her side,
who didn't think she was a **** or a *****...
A ***** captivates a rich man with her
coquettish prettiness and is rescued from
a          life on the streets. Indeed,
the character of Rosemarie        Nitribitt
can be simply defined as a one-note,
gold    digging ***** and nothing more;
With dullness and utilitarianism,
they ***** themselves    out to men
who no longer find the Batman-&-Robin
                     relationship satisfying...
In a matter of decades,
Makiki's artistic focus had shifted
from the virtues of the Madonna
to the transgressions of the *****...
Most of the world disapproved of her;
calling her a temptress    and a *****;
One woman reporter, in tears,
told Weffer about being called a puta,
a *****, when she tried to enter
                  a poor neighborhood
                  wearing a press pass.
Last time she had an actual conversation
with this man,                he had degraded
her by treating her as a **** and a *****;
We are clearly type cast:           the *****,
the ******, the ***** & the gold-digger.
A girl does one thing, and is called a ****,
a *****, and all of those recognizable titles,
        while guys can do whatever they want,
and get praised & called macho,  Romeo & a player;
Blackburn magistrates heard that    David Ainsworth
was ranting and raving     during the physical assault,
calling his wife  a ‘****, a ***** and a ****’.
She fell in love with John but he attacked her
too, calling her ***** and strumpet;
she is often referred to as a *****
and a harlot, for she is of lower class than
both Desdemona and Emilia.   ‘At least I don't
have to ***** myself out to married men,’
he snapped back.    If she were to go home
and be kicked and beaten by her angry parents
calling her a **** and a *****,
      she even go to the doctor?
I was a tease and a *****, a flirt and a **** -        I was horrible.
In this particular case, however, the child born
to a ***** is named after a particular adulterer -
After learning            that his son visits ******,
**** Lung goes to the *******    &
paying her not to see his son anymore,
sleeps w/ the ***** himself.
Women have three kinds of power,   historically:
as the queen, courtesan and the *****... (              )
You could call her popular, you could
call her the head-chick,    u could call
her *****, ****, or *****,    it didn't really matter,
    as           long as u say it to her face.
She always calls       me a ***** *****
& a          ****, told me that I was ugly
and she didn't know what he saw in me...
Others see it in a continuum  of more
old-fashioned         American distaste
for the ***** of Babylon that dwells in Rome,
spinning Jesuit         plots         [Illuminati vs. Freemason]
He finally could afford      to revel in          his obsession
    with cross-eyed prostitutes
from whom           he learned                  to put Descartes
before the ******;
That's because you've been *******
      yourself so long that we're all
sick and tired of hearing about it.
Should I be worried that I've reached
the point where immersing myself
in this is more attractive  than drinking
and ******* my way around the bright
city lights of King's Lynn?
I bet you were ******* yourself
to those   rich old businessmen    & their perverted wives again.
In any case, the Cathars believed that the Roman Catholic
Church was corrupt - the ***** of Babylon they called it;
Especially when they're dressed
as if they're about to go *******
downtown after the drag         theaters   let out;
David could be the bleakest character
Allen   has played, even more so than
the pill-popping,       ******* Harriet;
Eder,   et al. found that middle school
girls who initiated any type of ******
activity were those      *******, ***** & ******...
[scarlet *****, or cheap *****]

you call me *****
label me with broad brushstrokes
to paint onto the tableau of
my life a permanent stain where
you think i don't already see one.

the joke's on you.

trying to sully an already *****
contaminated crime scene
you won't wipe away fingerprints
seared into my skin
by those who also
saw me as that *****
were you disappointed when you saw
i already had ruby red marks
of hands wrapped around my neck?
because your flying shrapnel
accusations make me wonder
if you wish you had
gotten there first.

*****.

though the declaration stings
it certainly doesn't take me
by surprise when i
see that word stamped across my
forehead any time i look in the mirror
the syllable lives between my legs
and bleeds my secret shame
but i can't let you see me cry
i can't let you know it hurts
i can't let on that i would do
anything to purge this stain.

how could you understand
that i see my reflection in
***** in the toilet so i
shove my fingers farther down
my throat to recreate
that feeling of drowning
the gags that created me.

*****.

i want to blame that
violation
or even my erratic neurotransmitters
for morphing that flaxen-haired
nice girl
into the gnarled old
shame-riddled creature who sits
silently before you
being named *****.

but it was no one else who
led myself to this place
who traversed dimly-lit rooms
of iniquity
and was reborn as this contemptible creature
i take up my cross
my new mantle
my ******* scarlet letter.

you make me want
to run through the streets screaming
to stand on a street corner
preaching the gospel
of my culpability
have you heard the news
of our ****** executioner
the *****
the label feels even more
familiar than my own name.

i don't deserve a name.

take my clothing and dress me
in rags
strip me of my name and address me
only as *****
my life will now be only
passive acceptance and
those hands will explore my hidden places
though they are as unknown
as Disneyland on a gilded
summer day
but you can watch my searing shame
in the invisible white hot tears
only i know.

don't touch the *****
or you might fall victim to
my contagious disease
of optics and opinion
myself the lowest caste of society
relegated to empty halls
and abandoned structures
where i am abandoned as well.

you seem surprised that
the *****
would be fiercely independent
would be accustomed to
being alone
but who stays with a *****?
who takes her home to
meet the family
my independence was merely
an adaptation
Darwinian evolution ensuring
i would survive
to suffer another day
another trial
another sentence.

i understand now why
criminals are handed
multiple life sentences
because i'm punished daily
deservedly so
i would **** myself and if
i came back i would
cry out for more
more pain
more lashes
lay me bare and cut the skin from
my bones and call me *****
never stop
never let me forget
what is burned into the back of
my eyelids
a memory connected to
that word
my name.

i was given that name
by violating vandals
who spray painted my guilt
all over myself
and i can't escape that night
whenever i close my eyes and
pray i won't wake up
or pray i'll wake up in some other body
uncontaminated
a form that was never touched
virginal purity i wish i could
somehow repackage and
re-insert into my ****
to purify the orifice of all
those who branded me
*****
the mantle i took on myself
and made manifest.

Am a ***** who slept wit all my feeling locked inside
Am a ***** who slept wit different faces of you
Am a ***** who wore a artificial smile on my face to just keep you Happy
Am a ***** who Been with you soo many times though u hurt me
Am a ***** who was Never loved
Am a ***** who u made me really belive that I was supposed to be a *****
But why cant a ***** have feelings?
dsnt this ***** have a heart??
dsnt this ***** deserve anything?  
As she carried all the pain in her nd remained the ***** she was supposed to be..

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and die, and in three steps. The stars, the stars, the gold, the ****** and
the ancient Greek history and the sea, the sea, the sun, the future, the earth, the land and the glory of Jorge. In the morning, Russian wives, great beauty **** and **** skill and dedication. In the game, some interior stations are some Latin lover or ******. Or in the whole city the castle, in the shadow
of Jesus and in the golden eyes of gold. Lucky ******' ****** and the old German island, Elaine Schouler, ***** with many good friends. Throw your finger over the net with your finger. "Nelly Izza" Another German poem. Thomas Thomas was like a dog in his mouth. To describe the ******* winter and the winter creatures, animals, new dogs, vitamins and toothpastes; the first two epic movements of disability are bad ******* and worse. The computer is filtered through the computer. The crystal is very black. August, August ******* and in the dark, the baby and his daughter, ***** and the table on the table with the instinct. Spaniards, teeth, wolves' Wolves, shrubs and valleys have teeth in the valleys. I cannot wait for empty hours, empty mountains. In his weekly interview, Wade wrote about sexuality "about ***, shorts, ***, good times and beautiful women". He was taken to heaven and thrown into the inner room. There is a fighting drama. Wars: My wife-***** and I do not have any change in the list of "boxes" due to the robots. Neville is not good at football. WASH United States Hail Book Shoes. And his first was a blazing flame; *****, and on his head there were many diadems; and he had a written name that nobody knew, but he himself: Latin America and the world, we are all clear. Shopping in the United States. The soccer puta and the Christian buses were abolished: hair, hair, hair, hair, ***** hair and hair. ***** In the United States Outside of Brazil,
English is very good and many young people have lost their lives.
Pacific Lakeside in Asia. These are black and white,
white and black *****. Avoid using the body to direct our body.
There were many women, including women and new ***** men.
The city white city, night, children, the great red dragon, my God.
First, the Holy Land of the Holy Land, the **** living and the dead,
and the old, cursed and dead, and in three steps.
The stars, the stars, the gold, the ****** of ancient Greek history
and the sea,
the sea,
the sun, the future, the earth,
the earth and the glory of Jorge.
In the morning, Russian wives,
great beauty of a **** with a ****'s skill and dedication.
In the game, some indoor stations are Latin lovers or rapists.
Or in the whole city the castle, in the shadow of Jesus
and in the golden eyes of gold. The *****'s Luck, ******
and the old German island, Elaine Schoulo, *****
and many good friends. Throw your finger over the net
with your finger. "Nelly Izza" Another German poem.
Thomas Thomas was like a dog in his mouth. To describe
the ******* winter and the creatures, animals, new dogs,
vitamins and winter toothpastes, the first two epic movements
of disability are bad. The computer is filtered in the computer.
The crystal is very black. August, August *******
and in the dark, the baby and his daughter, the *****
and the table on the table with the instinct. Spaniards,
teeth, wolves Wolves, shrubs and valleys have teeth in the valleys.
I can not wait for empty hours, empty mountains.
In his weekly interview, Wade wrote about sexuality
"about ***, shorts, ***, good times and beautiful women".
He was taken to heaven and thrown into the inner room.
There is a fighting drama. Wars: My ***** wife
and I do not have any change in the list of "boxes"
because of the robots. Neville is not good at football.
WASH United States Hail Book Shoes.
And his first was a burning flame;
*****, and on his head there were many diadems;
and he had a written name that nobody knew,
but he himself: Latin America and the world,
we are all clear. Shopping in the United States.
The soccer ***** and the Christian buses
were abolished: hair, hair, hair, hair of a ***** and hair.
***** in the United States Outside Brazil,
English is very good and many young people lost their lives.
Pacific Ocean in Asia. They are white and black,
white and black. Do not use physically to control your body.
There were many women, including women
and new prostitutes. City white city, night,
children, big red dragon, my god.
First the saint of saints, the living cursed,
the dead, the old, the cursed and the dead,
and the three levels. The stars, the stars,
the gold, the ice, the Gregorian history
and the oceans, the seas, the sun, the future,
the earth, the earth and the terrible horror.
In the morning Russian women, intelligent dogs
and group of competence and dedication.
In the game are some domestic airports
against the Latino or offensive. Or in the city,
the temple was in the shadow of Jesus and the golden eyes.
Lucques and the old German island, El Salvador,
Erco and many good friends.
Adjust your finger to the net with your finger.
"Nelly Ezra" is another German poem.
Thomas Thomas was like a dog in his mouth.
The first two people with disabilities describe bad
and bad winter, animals, animals, new dogs,
vitamins and winter toothpastes. The computer
is being filtered on the computer.
The crystal is very black. August,
August and in the dark the baby and his daughter,
the garage and the table at the table.
Spaniards, Teeth, Wolves Wolves,
shrubs and valleys have teeth in valleys.
I did not expect to empty the mountains
without emptying them. In August,
interviews about *** "about ***, shorts,
***, good times and beautiful women".
He was taken up into heaven and thrown
into the inner space. There is a drama.
Wars: My husband is released from prison
and the list of "boxes" for robots remains
unchanged. Neville is not good at football.
WASH United States hail book shoes.
And the first was the fire. There are many genera
on the wing and on the head. No one else wrote names,
he himself, Latin America and the world,
we are all clear. Market in the United States.
Her hair, hair, hair, hair, hair were thrown. ||
In the United States

I'm the proverbial *****.
You only want me because I can pleasure us.
I'm the proverbial *****.
You might love me a little,
But you care about your land more.
Your proverbial ***** is tired of living in a camera store.
Your proverbial ***** is wanting to know if you only want her for her open door policy.
qYour proverbial ***** is a sucker for your intellect,
Your proverbial ***** falls for your charms and grace
Why are you the only one then?
Why are you the only one who can make proverbial ***** scream?
Whip proverbial ***** into shape.
She's been an awful ******.