Day started with happiness....
felt the sun was rising for me ..
yes im going to see him today.....
will he be in uniform.....
or stripped shirt....
Whatever it is,  he is mine

Hot he is with his glamour eyes
cute he is with his ***** cheeks...
all memories rewinded back...
Whatever it is, he is mine

Entered office with a silence ..
heart beats was heard to my ears...
eyes was searching for him...
but only empty chairs and tables was seen..

came to my work station ...
stared at his face...
Whatever it is, he is mine

there came a call saying he has come...
was running to the room...
with happiness which came to me after a long time...
by seeing him..
But he was not ready to see me..
rather he would have thought walls was beautiful than me...
as he was facing it and sitting...

hopes got faded away...
Tears flowed into my eyes....
was it a same person...
who wanted to meet me in peace..
made me to meet him into pieces...
Whatever it is, he is mine...

Saw his side face...his hair,,his shoes...
those beatutiful eyes....which made me to fall into love ...
came with lot happiness went away with lot of sadness...
Whatever it is, you are mine....

little bird
cant fly; cant fly
eyes always
looking at the sky
Never heard of a bird that can't fly
**** up lil bird
cold soup;
is all u gonna ever try
feed ur lovesick heart
lil bird
lovepotion is losing its high
oh lil bird
dont freeze wen ur parents
tumble you into this wholehell sky
dont get cold lil bird all dey want for u is to find ur own sky
bt shame lil bird ur mind has found its own neverland sky
oh lil bird ;if u could just fly
i know lil bird how u like the high
jst try; just try
ur siblings are shouting from the sky
u watch them lil bird with awe inspiring sigh;
and u turn your face lil bird
coz u cant face d lack of same love u find in their eyes
are u not trying lil bird???? tell me  or  have u jst glued your
eyes to the sky
fear lil bird has it turned you to
a box of ice and u keep looking for fire  to turn you from cold to nice
in the night ; hiding in the shadows  comes ur fight
keep fighting lil bird searching for dat thing  dat destroyed you
from the start
an enemy  so variant even u wont recognize  no one sees it lil bird
but u know lil bird how it is dat u hav to fight keep fighting fight fight fight fight fight fight fight..........
u laugh lil bird ...about how u thought once dat ppl were so high now u see them in the real light
dey got blood on their lips lil bird fools think that smearing lipsticks  can make it hide
but in the same light can u see urslf too lil bird
******* off of ppls love to make u high
oh sick lil bird how is ur idealism
love is your drug; yellow avian
and u want it unadulterated even more than your diet
even a slight impurity; u r spinning out of sight
stop dreaming lil bird come back from d neverland sky
maybe dey r jst ppl
and maybe dey r jst trying to survive
even with blood on their lips
and even with a foot that has
never touched a shoe for life.
so come lil bird come down from the neverland sky
they will never know  how it feels to see  the world , and want to change everything from left to right, to see someone in pain and get their own heart ripped apart
or how a song can make someone feel alive
and how when  you watch a movie and for a day become the character u like
funny lil bird  how u remind me ....
and when you want ppl to understand you without words.....
watever lil bird jst come down from d neverland skies

i'll be your rock,
you can count on me.
you just hafta ask,
and say what you need.
watever works best,
is what works for me.
if it causes less stress,
then I'm all for it, please.
things may see dim,
but I'm hopin to see,
a chance in our fate,
so eventually,
we can all coexist,
so harmoniously,
but we'll never get there,
no we just won't succeed,
until we drop all the hate
and start making peace.
there's no time to waste,
we're chasing our dreams.
until then I wait,
to see true unity,
but just know through the chaos,
that you can always count on me.

*** n drugs rule the minds of teenagers.
going threw pubirty life takes us threw lots of stages.
depressed and feeling left out and stuck with no courage.
it puts thoughts in our minds that just leave extra luggage.
parents and teachers aint giving us no hope.
so kids turn to drugs living in despite and gun smoke.
teens living and doing watever the **** they wont 2.
thinking its alright and just doing what the other kids do.
express there mind threw creativty and smoking trees..
but please just stop...and put down the negativity...not 4 me...you..yourself...do whats best.....now..............whats next......

I sand still.
your stare penatrates me.
It hurts sending a cold chill.
Your kiss is a drug it's the key.
how can i regain your trust?
i will do watever it takes.
ur body moves, i fill with such lust.
I'm tired of them ******* fakes.
who else dpes this disapoint?
just who are you?
tell them ******* go smoke a joint.
can i find anything you say to be true?
im lost and alone.
music is my serenity.
can you hear my tone?
i love you ******!
its the last time i can say it.

She feels the sweat,the heavyness of a body against hers, the weight holding her down, she wakens from watever was in the cloth that was put over her nose and realizes that a man is on top of her a man is doing this to her, he is riping at her clothes, tearing at everything she has, gettin inside and pushing and pushing himself all the way, she tries to cry out and fight but it is no use, she panics and everything clicks, she is getting *****, some man is in her own home ****** her, he never looks at her never once looks down, he keeps griping her tighter and tighter as he releases everything, she feels the sweat of his brow hit her check, or maybe its just her tears, He whisper"don't say a word, or i'll just do it again, but even if you do noone will believe you". He leaves her alone in her bedroom, noone herd her or him, her family was home but nothing, she gets a shower and wonders at 13 and in her own home. How? Why?

A stinging sensation
Similar to that of a bunch ats having their way with you
A burning unscramble itch
Simlar to that of a couple bee stings
The uncontrollable feeling of anger
Like acid meet metal
Fumes and bubbles
Smoke everywhere
Ready to ignite watever comes close
This burning hot feeling
This uncontrollable yearning for something that someone has
Could it be?

An ordinary morning
Noise everywhere
Not wanting to get out of bed
An errie feeling crept up to me
Like a sense of dejavu
Telling to stay down
Dont get up
It felt like a thousand bugs
Crawling under my skin
Wat i opened my eyes to
Is this the reason why u shouldn't check your phone in the mrng?
Could this feeling be wat i think?

Wait.....it could be it
But why
I hve no reason to be
We never had anything to begin with
Then why does my heart feel like this
Like a rag doll..... bound in twine
Untill the thread is almost cutting in
Then like a yoyo
Thrown around only to come back to the thrower to be thrown again
Like a soccer ball being passed around teammates
Only for the striker to give it a more powerful kick
Every second i looked
The string got tighter
And as i closed my eyes in thought
I could taste blood in my mouth
What irony
My head laughed
But only the sound of gritting teeth could be heard
As i endured the tugs froms my hrt
Yes this was it
Its the conclusion i came to
Yes indeed
It was jealous

Back and forth I feel sea sick
But when I wake up I swear I have amnesia.
Can't recall who I called to have pleasure, but why applaud something when my hands are down like tree trunks? Watever that means..

midnight thoughts..
so l went to my aunts and watever
this movie was playin and just flashed me back to a special someone
and emotions were running all over the place
but it was all negative
like the good feelings started arising
then i remembered how he made me, truly feel...
aside from the whole **** facade i put on for him...
but like yeah he just kinda kept replaying in my mind
and its kind of ****** up
i dont like it
its taking me back to 8th grade
the feeling of obligation
of acceptance
....to be seen as cool
its like the angel and the devil on my shoulder
its ****** up
but its fine
its apart of the whole journey
its ****** up...but it'll get ******* better
...one day
i wont crave the attention anymore
or the acceptance
but its apart of it...
like im gettin there...

The stars, the moon the sun and the earth is one beautiful  realiy. When you meditate when you just let tht logic thought tht only ur left hemisphere of the brain  kicks in. Then you see day from night but when you are in a 3d stage you will say apples is just like oranges. The way u deal with pain is wat we been taught  say a pry  an only God knows wats best and we turn da cheeks and suffer in silence  *** we train to submit to  an allegory man. With a allegory story with a book  tht u must knw wat u reading to knw the truth behind every word tht was written.the truth is  we all or spirits  tht will go and will return.  The age of Aquarius is approaching some let tht logic thinking come in play some just scared to let it go well watever da case maybe we all know something is more to us then wat we been taught. So next time you wanna use your free thinking just look at the little things such as dogs and see they are  just other formed of u and when you realize tht gasp tht in and you see the stars, moon, sun and the earth is a big reality.we must come in terms before it to late. ☮️