I

I wish I’d seen it sooner, you are parallax,
Your lipstick fooled me for so long, you catalyst,
You trapped me in my own heart, you are Calypso,
I kept my fears hidden behind a mental citadel,
You tore it down, your touch was selcouth,
But only to me, you were too beautiful, you are kalopsia

II
Even your fingernails lied, you are kalopsia,
I shouldn’t come down from cloud nine, this parallax
Should’ve been more apparent, not selcouth,
Not how I thought it, you are TNT, a catalyst,
You demolish with your winks, even my citadel
Fell before you, but you still kept me in, you are Calypso.

III
Tell everyone you’re real, you are Calypso,
You are not a myth, you are simply kalopsia,
A breathtaking lie, you didn’t need a citadel,
Nobody could break you anyway, you are parallax,
But you’re evil at all angles, you are the catalyst
Of all things lonely, this no longer feels selcouth.

IV
You are kalopsia, the gorgeous catalyst.
You are parallax, wrecking citadels.
You are not selcouth; you are Calypso.

''the things i desire will destroy me in the end''
My kalopsia has led to my collapse
i don't think i have been awake, anyway
i, i always glorified you,
maybe in my dreams
maybe in my brain
i always did
i made you my forever
i tried to make me your forever
but
i Failed
miserably, shaking my hands
standing alone in that little corner
slowly, quietly, my anguish settled
but now again i want to drown into you
but now again you are holding a gun to my head
the knife logged into my throat
i shattered
i could see every fleck of me,
broken and shattered there
i start ice breathing
but again
tell me that you love me
LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE
like an open book, an open wound
i kept ripping all the pages, all the wounds
you make me alive
but your words are like
those shards of glass at my feet
From the awful confusion
of love notes carved into my skin
you have led me down
the light at the tunnel's end
there is not much
after i fall
i scream till i turned my heart into a black- blue acid
i broke my ten bones,again
i wished you left me earlier
you were the air that hitched in my throat
but you can't see anything now
My claustrophobic suicide
I had your name on my gravestone
you came, you sat, you kept the flowers
and went away.
****, you never came back
i know you never will

Your eyes are the ocean
Your lashes are the waves
It’s a privilege to drown in them
And even live just for a day

Your collarbones are the trails
My lips want to wander forever
Your jaw line is the road
I would walk forever

Your lithe being
Is enough to take my breath away
Your pure heart
Is enough to let me stay

You are ethereal
You are otherworldly
Your beauty is abyssopelagic
You are perfect

My heart flutters when I see your previews
(I became an agastopian because of you)
And every after sunset and sunrise
I still fall in love with you