Loool,***
Haha haha
I can't breath
what a joke

write me a whaaaat?
you must be insane

I wrote you a freaking journal
how you reaped my heart and jumped on it
c'mon babes you forgot that already

okey let's try this again
remember the pressure you gave me
the dramas
seeing you was traumatising
loving you was, is and will always be
the hardest thing I've ever done

so yeah
I wrote you a poem
just one poem
but I couldn't finish it
the pen rebelled
the ink stopped flowing
my hands trembled
and my heart pounded fiercely
the words were too heavy
so they remain stuck on my throat

echoes of the days long gone
reminiscing, reminiscing
memories is all you have
before memories is all I had

at 7 I was just a young toddler who enjoyed climbing trees and taking risks

at 15 the world felt more real ,my innocence taken,now am more cautious

at 20 I enjoy studying and hopes to be a doctor are still fresh
but am forced into love, just blinked and am a wife and a mother

here I am crying ,trying to stitch up this broken heart at 27.
Love is not bad but falling in love is horrible,a thought I pondered upon

here i am
Just turned 80
seen enough evil and nasty
experienced love and wonders of this planet
years are lessons
that I tell you

I only dreamt
but for a while

*I had hopes
for a better tomorrow

for you






for me






for us





I was young and still falling in love
I was young and still learning how to fly
I was young and still discovering nature and the wilds

I am still
young
and that
I fear most

In your smile the warmth of sunshine
In your eyes the moonlights glow
Serenity surrounds you
Wherever you do go
The gentle breeze of springtime
Whispers your name into the air
And the colors of the seasons
Are reflected in your hair

Goodbye dear wife, my children
I must leave you now
For the bitter war has reached our homeland
The enemy is now at our door

Yes I call them enemy
But they are Americans just as I
But they are North and I am South
And as Americans we must die

I wear the grey they wear the blue
But both of us bleed red
Our blood will intermingle
As we are joined in death

I did not ask, did not wish
To tear apart this fair land
To become a part of man made hell
To see the homes and fresh green fields
Destroyed by shot and shell

I go reluctant dearest wife
My children who I love
Now I must put my salvation
In god who rules above

Yes, I must fight and I know that I must die
For they are many and we are few
But that's the way the dice did lie
I did not choose, I did not want but I never had a say

Come, come
Into this my last embrace
I must bid this last goodbye
And then my final destiny I must face
This is my last goodbye

Goodbye