While you were away,
My words seem to fall on deaf ears.
Unvoiced mutterings that fall out in droves,
Burning rants swallowed back in singes and sears...

While you were away,
Time was stagnant; a viscous puddle.
Hours only stretched longer,
The second hand jabbing its ferocious needle...

While you were away,
The clock drove me insane.
Ticking my life away in literal seconds.
Losing sand grain by grain...

While you were away,
And when it's all quiet and dark,
I could hear my heartbeat...
Awaiting the new day to make its mark.

While you were away,
My words seem to have lost their meaning...
As if they were stuck in limbo,
Unanswered calls that keep on ringing...

While you were away,*
I am but a little lost foal...
Because whenever you're away,
I am never whole...

do not date a girl
who writes.
she will internalize
everything,
carve poems
into your eyelashes
instead of
kissing them,

she will analyze you,
calculate age
from the rings
your coffee cup
leaves
instead of refilling it.

she will memorize
the way your
lips curl around steam,
but not that you
take it
two sugars,
no cream.

she will read your
palm instead of
holding it
against her chest.

she will not
blink
when you leave,
because she is
already
romanticizing it.

The damage a storm can do
isn't even close to how I felt after you

emotions can overwhelm an individual until their own minds are lost

Feelings passed and hours are gone.
Distracted by these demons
Of right and wrong.
Anxiety now at its prime
Id wince and cry
Or count the hours to the time I'd die.
Alone I feel, within this space.
Slicing my arms in disgrace.
Her face still stuck in my mind.
Her eyes, her hair, her lips which I find...
So tempting.
But I am only wasting my breath.
Shaking hands with ideas of death.
Hoping this pathetic pain will subside.
Till then this heartache is by my side.

I use to be his baby
now he has a baby.

I use to be his lady
now he has a lady.

He use to call me baby,
when I was his lady.

now he has a new set
and I'm just a single ex.

he didn't treat me the best
it's hard not be bitter, when he's blessed.

When you told me,
"Please don't leave baby, stay with me.."
My body was just a tool,
For you to ***** with.

When you told me,
"I promise I won't fall for anyone else.."
I etched that in my heart
Believing that I'll never be replaced.

When you told me,
"She's just a friend, I'm just helping her.."
Pretending I'm fine
Vomiting your words.

When you told me,
"It's just not the same anymore.."
I tried everything to make you stay,
And I found out later it was her, all along.