As I walk through the valley of pain and regret, I see the rocks crumbling around me.
Surrounded by my past. Old emotions and memories I shouldn't be thinking of. Sometimes I wonder why? I continue to walk hoping that the rocks will stop falling so I can continue to my path with ease. Things haven't been good in my life. It does have its moments. My life is like a cloudy day. You don't know if it's gonna rain and storm. My life has been full of pain and regret and little light. As I try to continue on with my dull life I ask you who is reading this. Should I continue? Should I go on and move forward and hope for the best? I am confused and in my emotions and old memories that I shouldn't be thinking of and don't know what to do. I ask you.....the reader. Should I?

My life I feel is at a stand still.
With little to no friends I struggle.
My life is like a ******* hole full of emptiness.
I try to continue with the mask on my face and it starts to crack.
I am being pushed into a corner and don't know what to do.
I try to get help but no response.
I try to help others even when they never help me when I need it.
My life is a complete disaster.
I have lost my feelings for life and everyone in it.
I don't know.....how to feel anymore.
My mind, heart, and soul is lost.
****** into the void.
I am just an emotionless person trying to be happy when I know I can't.
Wondering upon this earth studying. Learning. How to makeup emotions and feelings.
Trying to make myself feel again.
I really don't know what to do or think anymore.

abandoned by her mother and father
to take on this cold world alone
no voice left in my throat
to sing the melodies in the song
such a strong girl, yet I break down every night
never forgive you, you let me take on this fight
by myself, without your help
salvation is what I seek
I call your phone one hundred times
leaving voicemails that pled
yet you still don't seem to care
I face my hard times desolate
deserted, this life is hurting
me, myself, and I
why can't I overcome the trials.
just want to be put to sleep
internally in peace

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*If I call to you,
above the crashing waves
boisterously gathering
on a rocky coastline,
like a trumpet in the mist
cutting through the fog
signaling a safe passage
to my heart,

do you hear me?

If I send out echoes
of promises made
and lifeline affections,
floating as a buoy,
a vessel of desire
reaching for you
on these stormy seas,

can you hear me?

If I am left stranded, marooned
in the silence of my tears
alone, without you
on a desolate island where
seashells have no names and
tides retreat from the sorrow
of my broken heart, pleading for you,

will you hear me,

please?

Oh my dear love
You are in my thoughts
You are in my heart
You fulfill my fantasy
I can see you today
You,looking so sweet
Just like a star on the sky
In the middle of the night
Your eyes twinkling
And staring at moon
I will be there soon
I swear I'm not a loon
For me you are a boon
Your silent lips
& Murmuring heart
Saying 'I love you'
Your face shines
And decorates the sky
Your soft hand in my hand
And make a galaxy of love
Your presence in the sky
And your brightness shy
Follow the path of love
Your voice is attractive
That enchanting me
Your beautiful smile
Make me feel so happy
You are my star
Far away from me
To see you
To meet you
I want wings to fly
To Soar in the sky
To talk with you
Walk with you
And love you.

By shaffu

I have seen the best of you and the worst of you, and I choose both.
I watch you,
I read you like a poem,
Annoyingly paying attention to every detail that is you.

Lustfully craving the trace of your fingers, mouth, tongue, eyes on the contours of my body.
I want you.
Abusing my mind thinking about you.

Days turn into weeks,
I find myself longing to feel that warm rush when you say my name.
The passion in your eyes consumes my body and runs through my veins.
I miss you.