Sabrina

Sabrina Oct 2014

This is a procession of bodies.
Him on the couch, right next to me tonuge stuck too far down.
You there too far away. Too confusing. Too much too anything. Too little everything.
Another stuck somewhere in the middle. Cute and sweet and here for now.
One right at my fingertips. A friend. A must have filled with so much hope.
Another too clingy, without spark. In no certain place at all.

And there will be others... I think.
But what I have learned,
body after body,
Is that this is how the procession takes place.

#love #heart #lust #body #guys

Sabrina Jul 2014

Heart Ache

I waited for you to tear me apart.
The "I miss yous"
And other sweet words
Nothing mattered while you were holding me.
I sunk into you.
Worrying all while
for another scar.
And
Another tear.
I gave up my fears for you.
And then you tore me apart.

And now I cannot eat
I cannot sleep
Waiting for those late night calls...
I cannot think...
Thoughts are useless...

Darling dear,
you gave me a scar
unlike anyone else

And I am not sure I will recover.

#heart #pain

Sabrina Dec 2012

this is it.

Something is opening up inside me
Fairy dust is leaking from my heart
And dripping into my deepest depths

And right now all I can feel is....
An abundance happiness that's leaking from within the palms of my hands.
I wait for someone to come,
Because just one set of hands holding so much joy just won't do.
But at the same time,
There is too much sadness bearing down heavily on my shoulders.
So I stand in the cold, waiting for others to help, and hold the excess.

I've become,
An emotional explosion of shattered-glass-flying proportions.
And all I can think is....
This is it.
This is life and this is what it feels like to live.

#heart

Sabrina Dec 2012

With You

With you and I hand in hand,
I met infinity,
Inside a ticking time bomb.
Our hands were interwoven,
as we walked through walls.
Somewhere along this awful winding trail with its many S curves ,
I'd found what most others have lost.
And inside forever I lived,
Until the end.
Happily with you I spent forever,
hand in hand.

#love #you

Sabrina Dec 2012

Today

I am a bundle of tangled thoughts
You are my obsession
I heavily bear
We tear one another into thin, raggedy strips
Our aching pain is unparalleled
We both carry a barren torch
that yearns to be consumed.

Soul to soul,
And my heart splinters.
You make me ache and cry
In a wonderland filled of distraught.
How can something so beautiful be dosed in fresh pain?

New love, look at me.
New love, talk to me.

You **** me each day
And each day I awake new.
So darling dear why must you wait today?
Because I'm ready to wake anew.

Today, love, new

Sabrina Dec 2012

Dive

I dive in deep.
I expect to plunge into the deep depths of it,
Instead I fall into a shallow cesspool.
It's my own doing.
I am the only one to blame.
You told me to take a leap of faith.
Your faith.
I did this all for you.
I dove into a shallow, shallow pool
So why, tell me love, why do I feel as if dying underwater?
My lungs are mashing together,
And it is too late for me to speak.

#love #fall #dive

Sabrina Nov 2012

Wrong Words

I'm the combination of too many wrong words
And not enough of the right ones.

#words #wrong #combination