You love me but you love her more

I wish you good luck as you cut me down...

she walks hand in hand with the thing that will eventually **** her
she blows soft kisses in the wind
empty I love you's

the thing says
"I know you can't live without me"
and disappears

The girl screams silently
cries
dies

The thing comes back
to her funeral
and says
"I knew you couldn't live without me"

Please save me from insanity
I'm drowning in my thoughts

stop asking me to trust you
when i'm still coughing up water
from the last time you let me drown

Mama says I'm skinny
I cry as I throw up tonight's dinner
Mama says I'm beautiful
I paint endless layers to hide my true face
Mama says I'm smart
I have a mental breakdown in the bathroom during school because I failed a quiz
Mama says I'm perfect
But how can I be perfect if all I feel is pain
How can I be perfect if I can count every flaw
How can I be perfect with so many imperfections

the invisible marks your fingertips left on my skin
remind me of the days you told me you loved me
and it's killing me to know you love her more
it's killing me to know that you touch her the way you touched me
it's killing me to know that her name rolls off your tongue
you were the one perfect thing
i can't keep going
i can't keep know that you and her...
that you and her are more perfect than us