Would you cry over my lifeless body?
Would your hands be covered in my blood?
Would you show for my funeral?
Would you try to revive me?
If my wrist were wide open
Would you stitch them shut
If the nuse was tight around my neck
Would you cut it from me
If I would of called the moment
Before I decided to end it
Would you be standing over my grave?
If it all ended for me
What would you do?
How would you react to the news?

I’d tell you the pain
At any funeral
Was the suttle reminder
To love those closest to you
I’d tell you
She cries too
Her only shoulder to lean on
Was the faith you had
If I were best friends with god
I’d give you hints of who she was
How vast her love is
I’d tell you you’re never alone
Through every shadow
She could still see you
Your own light shining
If only you would pull the shade
If I were best friends with god
I’d tell you why we were created
How everybody needs a friend
Someone to love
To be loved by
I’d tell you her only power
Was making love
If I were best friends with god
I wouldn’t have to think
About a future without me
Never finishing watching
My kids grow
I’d tell you heaven was real
I’d describe it in vivid detail
How instead of gold gates
It’s only cobblestone walkways
White picket fence
And a light on the porch
In case you arrived at dark
If I were best friends with god
I’d tell you how she smiles
When her temper tantrums
Leave ruined lives
Holding each other’s hands
I’d tell you she’s just like a child
Cute and innocent
Wild and fierce
Out for attention
Hoping you’ll find her message
Somewhere amongst the chaos
If I were best friends with god
I’d have a few more answers
Sadly I know no god
Only the moments I cherish
As I fill my own life
With the laughter of friends and family
And maybe when I’m done having fun
I’ll have a cup of tea
And start a friendship
With whatever’s on the other side

What it was like to cry
The way tears ice cold
Would feel acidic on my cheeks
Rolling down my face
Children playing on hills
What it was like to smile
The way lips still pink with life
Would bend upwards to my ears
Bringing joy to my face
Balloons inflating at each corner
What it was like to laugh
The way sounds echoed from my belly
Would sound amazing early in the morning
Pushing for you to enjoy
Annoying children wanting attention
What it was like to love
The way she smelled after a shower
Would drive me crazy as my nostrils flared
Begging to be brought closer and remembered
Homeless people with their hands outreached
What it was like to be complete
The way it gathered my senses
Would echo only my worries
Knocking on every door in the corridors of insanity
Orphans just looking for love
I forgot all these things that started me
Just empty shells and broken glass remain
Cardboard homes and lost hopes
Gathering in my abyssal chest
A void trying to be filled
I forgot what it was it was like
To have a heart and offer it to another
A meaningless sacrifice
To a god that never existed
Aztec myth and Neanderthal paintings
A warm embrace
Just a clash of two bodies now
Love no longer a word
Lost definition in my dictionary
What's the point of trying
When every perspective is misguided
Lies piled on each other
I'm tired of this memory I possess
I only want to remember what its like
To be human once more
No longer this monster
Intent on feeling nothing
Shows how much fear I own
To hide from more pain
Pain I couldn't dare burden myself with
I dont want to back
Back to the scars and puddles of blood
I want to go forward and be happy

Hello

Who will tell the story of my life
Who will keep the darkness at bay
Who will lift the sun up in the morning
Everybody and everybody needs a crutch
If you die today
Everything will collapse
Time wouldn't be able to keep up
As things began to rot away
If you died today
My story will never be told
My existence will be for nothing
I know this sounds selfish
But I need you to live
Breath please just breath

This is the guide to a perfect suicide
Step one:
Go to the roof top of the tallest building
Step two:
Go to the edge
Step three:
Look down
Step four:
Scream out to the world "*******!!"
Step four:
Go home
Step five:
Go to your room
Step six:
Lock your door
Step seven:
Grab a pen
Step eight:
Grab a piece of paper
Step nine:
Write 'This Is The Death Of Me'
Step ten:
Pour your heart out and write how you would end it
Step eleven:
Stop writing
Step twelve:
Read what you wrote
Step thirteen:
Continue writing
Step fourteen:
Cry and let them fall on the paper
Step fifteen:
Log onto Hello Poetry
Step sixteen:
Post it on your page
Step seventeen:
Add it to several collections
Step eighteen:
Go back and add a note stating 'I wanted to do this'
Step nineteen:
Watch the 'Don't do it, You will be missed' rack up
Step twenty:
Reply to them all 'Thank you'
Step twenty one:
Keep killing yourself within your poetry
Step twenty two:
If you ever find the time...**** yourself
Within your poetry
If you ever doubt yourself
Don't resort to anything but coming to me
Call me if you have to
I will always be there for you
Waiting to comfort you
Step twenty three:
Clear your mind
Step twenty four:
This is the final step-
READ SOME REALLY DARK POETRY
FROM SOME RANDOM DARK POET
AND REALIZE YOU ARE NOT ALONE
There will be a lot of people
Who want to **** themselves
They will read this just as you have
And they will listen to my advice
Because I can get away with every possible crime
It's only poetry and there is no law
There is no judge
There is no jury
You are only guilty of one thing
Not killing yourself sooner
WITHIN YOUR POETRY
And **** what any body else says
You spoke your mind
You opened yourself up
You did what they couldn't...

...you found peace and solitude

All those subtle acts
Random as they might be
Carefully thought out
Remember DO's and DONT's
All the while portraying
With rainbow flags
Neon strobes
Megaphone so loud
You don't hear it
You literally see it
The feelings I have for you
Unreciprocated
Never demanded payback
Even when I tell myself
Just forget it all
Everything that has YOU
Graffiti carved into it
You manage to stay
Like an obedient dog
To a foreign owner
My commands and desires
Have no interest in listening
I watch you smile
Hold back tears
Deny depression
Hope and pray
For the exact outcome
I treasure in dreams
Only difference is
I'm not in yours
Notoriously I'll settle
Eventually in that specific
Happy little home
You made for me
In your life
As a dear friend
With all intentions
Of placing me on a shelf
Forgetting I exists
Similar to children's dolls
If I were to become inanimate
I'd surely collect dust
All effort to keep me
In the forefront of temporal lobes
You wouldn't even use
If I didn't chisel a smile
On your statue expression
Keen on not letting the world see
That very human little girl
Who only wants what she wants
Love and affection
Attention and devotion
Not placed on a pedestal
Merely elegantly placed
To surely be noticed first
If only you knew
What I keep hidden from you
Maybe you do
Then I'm just a fool
Either way it goes it seems
I don't have stupid
On my forehead
But undoubtedly it's stamped
Ever so boldy
Across my ***
*****
For patiently waiting
In a line to a buffet
Closed down for so long
Dying of starvation
Knowing no other place
Will be as enjoyable
As the one I dined at
That one time
So long ago
If you knew
If you really knew
That I don't just love you
My heart idolizes you
You captivated me
Far beyond comprehension
That it irates me
I can't figure out
Exactly why I'm stuck
Feeling this way
You're my sun
Keeping my earth in orbit
Till your light switch
Starts being played with
Disconnecting me from you
Leaving me awaiting
A black hole
You pull me away from
Just as I'm about to dive in
If I could erase you
From my heart I would
Just so you could chase
All the happiness
You may or may not find
While I chased nothing
Expecting nothing to come
From every little bit of something
Knowing, if you knew
How I really felt
You'd be lost right with me
Sipping depression
On anxiety front property
Stranded on an overpopulated island
To loneliness instead
Where unmet hopes
Grow like weeds
Often used as kindling
For a fire to get through the day
So tell me now
Do you really want to know me
Black box warning label
How I feel comes as a side effect
I guarantee you don't
I'd advise not
Then you'll have to face
How you really feel
Trying to juggle
What you want
With what you need
And what you have
So whatever you do
I ask at least
Turn the magnet off
That way rust can finally
Consume my iron heart
Unbending in it's unwavering decision
To love you and only you
With little to no interest
In potential relationships
Or ****** fulfilment
All I need is your smile
And I have everything
So if you didn't
Maybe you do now
Maybe you won't ever
Depending on if I ever
Convince myself to try
Attempting for you to know
So I'll know
What I need to know
To just close this chapter
I've been rereading
Since the day I met you

Maybe you'd be sadness
Crying tears too deep to comprehend
Ashes of your mourning
Leave winter freezing
If you were an emotion
Something says you'd be anger
Flurry of hands
An orchestra of left hooks
With a single right to play bass
If you were an emotion
Perhaps you would be happiness
A bundle of smiles
Still stroking the fires of life
How marvelous you would be
If you were an emotion
I'll place my bets on all of the above
And even then some
You're a whisper dancing on winds
Never knowing any outcome
But feeling life as it flows
If you were an emotion
I'd never be able to call you mine alone
But something still tells me
You'll always be in my heart

The perfect little family
Him short and stout
A mountain mover
Tattoos and gauges
Her even shorter
A sunset lover
Horror flicks and popcorn
A child with sovereign eyes
Torn between homes
Still a happy family
But I woke up
Empty bed emptier house
Just me and a bottle
With the hope I'll see my little girl
The next time I'm allowed to

He lied to me when he said I love you
He said he would never hurt me
Yet the first thing within the three months we have been together
Is cheat on me with my best friend
How could he do that to me?
I have my best friend/brother Robert
He beat him up but I gave him a ***** look when he came back
I love Robert
Adreishka thank you for making him let me vent
I know I haven't said much but I hate his guts
And You letting me sleep with Robert was very comforting
I needed to feel loved and safe
He told me how to spell your name
He really likes you
I just can't believe the guy who took my virginity
Cheated on me and then lied to me
The whole time we were together
**** I HATE HIS GUTS!!!!!!

Sincerely Amanda :)

Your not within my reach
Your just a fantasy
But when I touch you
It's like pure ecstasy

I hate you
I want to slit your throat
But only if you had one
Your dead to me

You left a hollowness in me
You made me bleed
Your just a dream I had
Now I hate you

I gave you so much
You took everything
Like a greedy thief
And then abandoned me

I HATE YOU!!!
How much blood do you want?
Your a dangerous game I played
Where the winner is always you

I'm not good enough for you
I sound like a *****
Know this: I can't cry
But I hope you choke on all the blood


I HATE LOVE!!!

I hate the way it curves up
Each muscle in your face aching to be released
I hate your smile
Only because I know its fake
You don't even realize it anymore
You've become so accustomed to it
Nobody can tell the mask from your real complexion
Not even your reflection
I hate your smile
When you hide the frown
I'd rather you let me try and make it real
I hate the way that bright red lipstick
Glues it into place
The way the mascara seems to stain the edges
From every midnight love attempt from your pillow
Ending only in failure when the sun reaches your window
You can't hide from me
I can see through it all
I hate your smile
Mainly because it resembles mine all to much

It must seem startling
Almost petrifying
Knowing the one man
Willing to sacrifice it all for you
Is two inches of his **** deep
In some pretty little town *****
Mocking the vows he made you
As he wears his sins
Like a badge of honor
****** sashes
Instagram post of them all
Blocking you from facebook
Changing passwords and hiding behind closed doors
Running from himself
More than shying away from you
Disgracing you with all 26 women
And you know them by name
Their your best friends
Colleagues and co-workers
Your 27 and still only one question lingers
For all the times he ****** you
He made love to another woman too
So how much does he love you
When I bleed when you can't cry?

Fighting my insanity, my pain,
My anger and hatred is really starting
To become a losing battle
Sadly I am becoming its prey
Hunted throughout the corridors of my brain
Stalked in my dreams
So how do you suppose I survive
When my whole existence
Is against me as a person
I can't find peace
Not even happiness
Because I fight myself on a daily basis
So maybe I should surrender
Give up and say goodbye
Hell nobody will care
I will just disappear
Be forgotten like usual
And slip into the background
Of the fleeting memory
That is my life
Hide in the shadows
Of a broken heart
Never to be mended
Because it became the footstool
For so many other hearts
Well no more
Because I'm saying *******
And use someone else
I have a war to fight

Home is just a wish
Orphans make every night
Upon the smallest shooting star
I have no home
Because I'll be abused and abandoned
Beaten to no identification of my remains
Bruised beyond comparison
Scarred for life
I have no home
It's simple to understand
Is it not?

This heart is red
The skies are blue
Yet it doesn't take a rocket scientist
To see that I loved you
Honestly
I have no idea what to call this
These feelings are all new to me
It feels like a fantasy
So take my heart
Do as you wish to it
I don't want to live
If my world isn't with you

I procrastinate, I'm aware of that
I plan everything for tomorrow
Just in case tomorrow comes
You're fighting it
Hoping it doesn't come
I don't know about you
But I like to have something to do
I'm not sure if I have tomorrow
But I'm trading yesterday's agenda
For tomorrow's unknown future
I have tomorrow
So I'll plan for it
Just in case it decides to show up

It's "him" this
So many more "him" that
Bickering of the way
He often treats you
But around me
I see you glow
Smiling without saying a word
As if it were natural
That my presence is amusing
You'll kiss me
Acknowledging feelings
You can't hide from me
When they're identical to mine
Yet still run off
Chase a dream you think you'll achieve
With "him" as the designated driver
I get it though
"He" has the looks
The frame and build
I'm nothing to compete with
A simple scoff
Not trying to measure up
Just tell me why my heart
Becomes your playdough
You play with
When things get rocky
I try to hold on
Just so you'll play more
Back in the container I go
Whenever "he" calls
Or decides your worth coming back to
I'd rather you throw me in the trash
Donate me to someone else
Than keep me in the dark
Hoping you'll mold me
Back into the happiest man
Even if it is just for a minute
Seeing your eyes light up
Smile gain life
I know being happy is scary
But this sadness is tiring
Either the sadness goes or the fear
One has to end
Before it's too late
For us to play together ever again

I know I'll survive now
Even though my mother
Drunk and doped up on her usual
Cocktail of potential overdose
Abandoned me at an early age
Even though my father
Money hungry and starving for a dollar
Forgot time is more important than money
Because I found myself homeless
On the street corners looking for love
Begging for change
Every passerby giving my pennies and quarters
Dimes and nickels
Thinking a penny tossed in my coffee cup
Would buy me a shower
A single meal my lion stomach roared for
Or save their soul because I'm a charity case
But it wasn't the type of change I looked for
I truly longed for
It came when you walked by
You gave me a glance
A simple curvature of your undeniable intoxicating lips
Which caused me to blush
You said hello
And I knew I fell for you
That I would be able to cash in all these coins for a chance at your heart
And baby if you think you have a hollow chest
I'll become a caveman
Call it my home
Chase away every saber tooth virus
Trying to seperate me from the only place I can call home
I'll hunt caribou and elk
With the spears I'll make from my bones
Make a feast over the fire
I'll make the moments we spend together a memory
With every cave painting I leave behind
As I kiss your body with gentle hands
I hope I found a new home
Because I have nowhere else to go
No other place I rather be
Than holding you and telling you
Grab my hiking gear
Give me a megaphone
I want the world to know everytime
I tell you in a loving tone

Baby...I'm home

Ehi, ti amo
Non ti ** mai detto che ** fatto
Forse **
Mi hai sentito quando l'** detto?
Adreishka ... ti amo con tutto il mio cuore
Non voglio mai lasciarti andare
Voglio che nostro figlio sia perfetto
Lei è perfetta
Io non ti merito
Mi voglio sposare
Quindi, mi vuoi sposare?
Adreishka So che hai già detto sì
Ma dico sul serio
Voglio farti felice al di là di confronto


Translation for the people.


Hey I love you
I never told you that did I
Maybe I have
Did you hear me when I said it?
Adreishka...I love you with all of my heart
I never want to let you go
I want our son to be perfect
You are perfect
I don't deserve you
I want to marry you
So will you marry me?
Adreishka I know you already said yes
But I really mean it
I want to make you happy beyond comparison

I miss the times we had
I miss the way you held
Your velvet soft lips centimeters from mine
I miss the way you wrapped yourself
Into my engulfing arms
I miss the way you stared into my eyes
Looking for something that just wasn't there
You were looking for something
That I simply could not offer
So I hope you finally found it
I hope you can be happy
In the arms of another
In the eyes of someone
Less broken than I

I've poured my heart and soul
Into puddles before your feet
Told you in secrecy I loved you
Like a villain I roam these streets
Foraging for an existence
I can call my own
Yet all I've ever found was heartache
And even more broken glass
To fill the lost fragments of my chest
I just want to be acknowledged
Told I was loved
Even if you didn't
I told you countless times
I would always be there
Yet you vanished from my arms
Like smoke to lungs
I hope your happy now
Deep in the arms of a man
Who only loves what lays between your thighs
I maybe mad
But never once was I stupid
I know the look in a desperate mans eyes
When ***** doesn't come cheap
And your so willing
To think he loves you the same

I called it our poem
A reminder of how much I loved you
I knew what I wanted
With heart beats starting musicals
Pit pat of tiny feet
Joining in to add a rhythm
I wonder if you remember
What it was I knew I wanted
But its all a cross fading memory
Ill leave you well enough alone
Maybe I just wasn't the man for you
And you learned that before me

I know its hard
To love a demon
I know its hard
To cry for me
So when I end it
Dont say you loved me
Dont shed a tear
For I had no fear
When I pulled the trigger

I know its hard
To let people go
I know its hard
To hold on forever
So when I go
Dont try to save me
Dont try to hold on
For I made the decision
When I slit my wrist

I want to hear your heartbeat
Wake up to your smile
Know that neither one of us is going anywhere
It's the dim lights of morning
That make me see how truly aspiring you are
How beautiful you are
I know what I want
I want the sweet sound of bacon
Sizzling on the stove
Coffee on the ***
Filling the whole house with good morning beautiful
Breakfast in bed on the days we both don't have to work
Dinner already ready
Late nights buffets of each others company
I know I want you in my bed
Every night just to cuddle
The sound of little feet
Pit-patting up the stairs
The not so sneaky laughter
Of our beautiful children
Ready to pounce on us
I know what I want
I'm ready for every possible scare
I'm prepared for the hours of labor
The screaming and superhuman strength
The cries of our newborn
The late night bottle feedings
The up and at em diaper changes
The racing around Walmart
Chasing after the little ****
The laughter we'll both share
When we realize we forgot the diaper bag
The oh **** feeling when I know I ****** up
Forgot to grab a gallon of milk
The U-turns I'll make just to make you happy
I know what I want
The masquerading of feelings
At least on the day I pop the question
I know I want this
The life of a father
The life as your love
Your best friend
Everything you want me to be
I know I want it
Especially just being yours
I want it all
Every waking minute of knowing I love you
Every sleeping second knowing your next to me
I might not be made of money
I might not be perfect
I may be half a man with these scars
But with you by my side
I know I'll be more than your man
I know what I want
I want you to call me your teddy bear
No awkward name like snugglewuggle
Call me insane when I write poems
Trying to capture how much I love you
I want those kisses when I get home
Throw the keys on the table
Grab you and hold you just for the hell of it
Pick you up and start dancing
Just so I can hear your laugh
I want to call you from work
Just to see how your day is going
Get you to laugh if its been bad
Make you smile bigger if been good
Show up at your work
To bring you lunch
Even if you already have one
Take you on dates even when we're together
I want to keep the passion between us alive
You know what
I know what I really honestly want
That's a lifetime with you

If ever I could tell you one more thing
Stare you in the face
Under every circumstance
No matter the consequences
I’d want you to know something
I’d call you my mistress
My missing sanity
That even though I kiss her
My mind wonders to you
As I hold her
I hold onto our memories
I’d tell you
I’m sorry
For giving up so soon
For not having faith
For accusing you
Of never loving me to begin with
I never had faith in myself
I never found joy
In the breathes that I took
Till I found you
Hiding under a rock
Scared of the world
And I couldn’t help but love you
I saw you as perfect
Smart to know the real danger
Cautious to never test the waters
But still I miss it
The no label relationship
The endless conversations
And I still never told you enough
How much I love you
The way you talked
The way you called me crazy
The way you infected me
With emotions I was scared of feeling
Not sure if what I was feeling
Would hurt you in the end
Even though I tried
Still feels like I could have done more
I could have sent flowers
Showed up unannounced
Swept you off your feet
Created a hallmark moment
I could have been the white knight
Gallantly swooping in
Just to be a ******
I could have made you smile more
Yet I let it go to waste
I allowed it to fall apart
And even as I love them
I love you still
You’re the constant pain in my chest
The empty feeling
I fill with concrete and ****
You’re my mistress
Even though I steal no kiss
You're probably in his arms
Smiling at him
The way I know
You would have smiled at me
Staring into his eyes
With a sense of security
But even as I love you
We can’t change what has happened
But if ever the chance arose
I’d tell you one more time
I still think of you
Always have
I miss you
Always will
I love you
In this life and the next

Haha jokes on you
I'll never miss the ones
Who so easily turned their back on me
Ran when everything was all too real?
You have to be ******* me golden logs
I'll miss you?
*******
Apparently you never knew me
I did tell you however
If you hurt me
I would be your worst enemy
I rather be your castle walls
Keeping you safe
But you abandoned that dream
For something you thought was better
Guess we all have something better
You're a downgrade from what I have already
Which happens to be nothing
So if you think I'll miss you
Think again...I just told you I wouldn't

Goodbye
I'm going to ******* die now
I slit my wrist
I'm not looking for attention
I'm not looking for help
I'm helping myself
By permanently solving
All these temporary problems
Seeing as how I am the problem apparently
So I'll say goodbye one last time
Lay my head to rest
And just slip away
Into my own oblivion

Crimson walls
Pixelated pink
Arms out wide
Soothing embrace
Eyes filled with tears
I'll see you in another life
Written on crumpled paper
Held tight in your hands
Final thoughts
Pulsating questions
Why did you leave me
Alone to witness this hell
If I see you in another life
It will be on opposite sides
Of the same spectrum
Dancing thru fields of corpses
Like flowers in full bloom
I can't help but want to chase you
Into the unknown pits of oblivion
Uncertain of what awaits me
When it's my turn to cease
My only desire is
You'll hold my hand
In those final seconds
To greet me on the other side

I lost too much
Begged for forgiveness I didn't want
Prayed to midnight suns
Just to repeat the only verse in its lullaby
I cared to listen to
I turned my back on hands outstretched
Beacons of hope at the end of the tunnel
Yet I picked myself up
Didn't bother brushing myself off
I knew I'd be right back down in that same whole
Only 20 seconds after finding my balance
I'll tell you what happened to me
In that not so distant past
I was a victim to my own demons
Thew ones night couldn't forge
The ones day lost all faith at the sight of
I'm now just that average person
Who found a way out
But wished the whole was a little bigger
I'm the rabbit in every whole
Hiding in at night
Running away from at daybreak
Home will never be home
Love will never be known
I'm the outcast of a society
They didn't realize they rejected
Yet when the tears fall
They'll only ask
What happened to you
Even if I tried
What really happened to me
Isn't easily comprehended
From someone who tries to hide
The most obvious of pain

Field of flowers
How many pedals will fall
The final tally
I love her
She loves me not
She loves me
I love her not
Back and forth
Answers themselves getting confused
How many flowers die
Before the voices in our hearts speak
I love her, she loves me not
She loves me, I love her not
Love, hate, call it complicated
This isn't facebook
But it seems to be more of an obituary
Good flowers died today
Reason unknown as answers aren't found
Who loves who
When nobody loves anybody
Just our reflections and the sound coming
When lips are in motion
I love her, she loves me
She loved me not, I love her not
Love fading or growing
Who can tell anymore
When silence is a better eulogy

Eyes as beautiful as the oceans
I can take a first class trip on a canoe
And still feel so alive
Swimming in these calm waters
Isn't just a blessing but a privilege
I can't help but want my toes to wrinkle
I love swimming in her eyes
It's the only time I feel like I'm not a monster
It's the only time I'm able to love her
Without holding anything back
Her eyes are my only tie to the beaches
The sunset never looked better
Then in the eyes of such angelic beauty

I love you
I love how weird you are
I love how you smile at my stupidity
How you find a sense of peace
Within my voice
I love you
I don't even know why anymore
I just know I do
I love how you find comfort
Within my anger and despair
You find relief in my problems
Because it makes your problems seem less
Than the way you view them
I love how you love me
The way you say good morning
The way you say goodnight
I simply love you for no reason
Can this be true
If it is not
I'm dying knowing I gave everything
Loving you the way you deserve
And I hope the way I want to love you
Is the way you want to be loved
Because I don't want to waste your time
I want a love that is true
And seeing as how you loved me
For the past seven years
I know this is true
And for that I love you even more
I will scream it at the top of my lungs
If I have too

Im the *******
Dogs of war
Im the hellhounds
Howling at the moon
Hear my call tonight

I stare up
Into the darkened sky
Gazing at the stars
But here I stand
Hell bent on your destruction

Burning my victims
Till I reach you
I want you dead
I use the stars to find you
Your dying by my hands

Someday Ill have your heart
Bleeding at my feet
The same way
You left mine
THIS IS WHAT YOU CREATED

Im a hell bent warrior
Gazing upon the stars
To give me guidance
To find you
And leave you broken

How will you react
When you see this ghostly face
How fast will get to your knees
And beg me for forgiveness
Like I have mercy to show

You stripped me down
To absolutely nothing
Taking everything
When I barely had anything
So Ill have you begging and bleeding

Im a hell bent warrior
Gazing upon the stars
Looking for a shortcut
To your heart
I cant wait anymore

I want your death
I want you to feel
The very pain I have felt
I want you to bleed
I ******* hate you

I want you at my feet
I want you limp and lifeless
I want your soul
I want you to die
By my hands

If I never smoked ****
If I never took a sip of sweet whiskey
If I never broke the law
If I never broke as many hearts
Due to the fear of being broken further
If I never loved so freely
Maybe I would be almost perfect

If I wasn't the man I am
If I was the man I dreamed of being
If I was her beloved blessing
If I wasn't such a ******* monster
If I wasn't so helpless
Maybe I would be almost perfect

I guess I'm always meant to be imperfect
Always wanting to be almost perfect
Running from the whatever I am

Still lost to this darkness
Prisoner of the madness
Yet I proudly say
I'm back

Today marks my decent
Back into the life of poetry
I so desperately need
Again I say Hello to you all

I surrender
I tap
I give up
I quit
All this *******
I need to rest
This fight I cannot take
My knuckles are bruised
My bones are creaking
My burdens are to heavy
Please I quit
I'm calling it quits on life
Bye. Adios. Chao. Au revoir.

With this life
With this sorrow
With this anger
With this hatred
With this self-pity
Im done with it all

I dont want to live anymore
Nothing left to see
My aching bones
Rusty and crumbling now
Cant your god just let me die
And fade into the background of a fleeting memory

Im done with it all
Tired of trying to please
All these arrogant people
Who continue to think
They know anything about me
But they only know my name

Im done with it all
Trying to acccomplish something
Thats better off as a dream
But whats the point of giving up now
When Im so close to obtaining it
**** it Im done for the last time

You pushed and pushed
I was the one who fell
You werent the one
Trying to face their fears
Standing alone in the middle of a road
Wondering which direction to go

Im done with it all
Sick and tired of waking from nightmares
Wondering if everytime I wake
If its all just a never ending dream
Trying to find something to believe in
Only finding a finger given by the heavens

Im done with it all
Trying to find a place to call home
Only finding an empty house
With people souless and uncaring
Quick to turn thier back
Not even trying to embrace a son

Do you hear me world
Im done trying to please you
Trying to find my place
So Im going to dig my grave
And watch you beg me
Not to end all of this

Watch me now world
Take this dusty 45
And this rusty blade
Curl up at the bottom of a bottle
And live free one last time
Before I bleed this life out

Do you feel like
You would be better off without me
Im done asking unaswerable questions
You wouldnt tell me
Even if you had the answer
So I will say goodnight and goodbye

I wont miss it at all
Hear me now
Under the ringing off a 45
Im done straining my voice
Going horse from over worked muscles
One last time I will say IM DONE!!!!

You see the knife in my hand
The blood across my face
Drenching my clothes
The intestines spilled across the floor
I'm guilty officer
I'm the psychopath
Who ripped the stomach open
Bled the corpse dry
Bathed in its blood
I ran barbed-wire through its temple
I played the xylophone on its ribs
I'm guilty officer
Arrest me please
Wait you can't
You're hanging from the ceiling
Hooks running through your chest
Precise enough so you wont die quickly
I'm guilty officer
You can't do anything
Your poor wife died
You watched it unfold
The constant stabbing
The thrusting of my blade
Yes officer
It's her blood I'm drenched in
Your sons intestines
Your daughters temple now apart of my fence
I'm guilty officer
Nothing you can do to stop me
I am ******* death
Now bear witness to your own fate

These arms of stones
Castle walls built strong
This chest of a hollow heart
Feathered pillows sewn for comfort
All this I promised you
Sakota
I don't expect you to reciprocate
These feelings of affection
Just know this simple thing
Any which way you desire
I'm here for you

I have a sudden sensation
A craving for something
An intense lust for something
I think it might be you
My palms are clamy
My **** is throbbing
I wonder if I'm hungry
Unable to fulfill this animal instinct
To place myself in between your thighs
Lose all sight and sound
As your mouth opens to moans
While your hair flows in the direction
You twisted your head
I'm suddenly hungry
Not for food
But for ***
For the passionate essence of love
So what do you say
We go do it in your parents bed
You hate them anyways

I miss the cold nights
Laying in the vacant bed
Of *** stained sheets
Staring at the moon through the window
I miss the way I slept
In every part of my room
Like a rock in the desert
Falling off the side of the sand dune blankets
I miss the rants of my insanity
The psychotic lullaby of the moon
Calling down onto me
To hunt a victim of purity
Plague them with the emptiness of insanity
I MISS ME
The old me
Of no heart and soul
No regret from anything he did
But now I have me
The man I wish I never was
Because I have nothing to offer her
And I know I love her
I know she loves me
But what am I to do
When I have nothing left of even me
I miss me
He always knew what to do
Oh well she fell in love with me
Not the old me
And I will do whatever it takes
To give her what she truly deserves
I miss me...because the I'm incomplete
Without her next to me

The title says it all
I miss you
Nothing else to really say
But I love you still

Average Joe
Regular Bob
Nothing fancy
Ordinarily normal
**** up all around
Lessons don't make mistakes
Mistakes make lessons
So why is it that I never learn
To just follow in the lines
I learned how to color
Before I could even read
Yet I still manage to mess it up
I'm just me
A ****** up individual
Decent human being
Struggling to make life
Something worth living
Maybe one day I'll be more
For now I'm just me
Simply Rob

I grew tired of asking
What it would be like
When I'm no longer there
Not within range
For you to touch
For you to say hi
For you to hear from
For you to think
You saw me on the freeway
Or able to pick up
When you're broke down
Trying to hold it together
Wanting to get away
I won't be there anymore
Can't run out the door
So don't take it personally
When my feet sway
Parallel to the floor
It wasn't anything you did
It wasn't any reason why
I just felt I had to die
There wasn't anything
I could do to be better
I tried to avoid it
But it haunted me anyway
I was always going
Never knowing where
But I'm leaving
And I know when you learn
I'll be too far for you to stop
So save your tears
Forget all your fears
I'm exactly where I should have been
I'm leaving
Don't worry I'm fine
Nothing anyone could have said
Would make it easier
I just hope you find strength
To carry on through the day
Sorry I couldn't stay
I just had to get away
From the me I was becoming
Always running out the door
Just to find a purpose
That kept my feet on the floor
Now they're parallel to it
As I take my leave
From all the pain
I've gotten familiar with
I grew tired of wearing
My heart on my sleeve
So here's an I love you
Before I hit the road
I'll try to send a postcard
But where I'm going
I doubt has an address
Here's the PS just in case
I'm sorry for going
Now that I'm gone
Don't let a tear leave
I wasn't much of anything
Even though I meant something to you
I just couldn't stand
The fighting in my head
Every 2x4 snapping
As my mind caved in
I couldn't take it anymore
That's why I locked the door
And my feet sway
Parallel to the floor

I wonder what it would be like to be me
To tear this mask from my face
No longer hiding the tears
No longer afraid of the scars
Just be me for once
Smile a smile I can love
Laugh a laugh that echoes
When do I get to be me
Who really knows me if I don't know myself
Your god gave me the finger
Turned away from me
Now I have nobody
Just a blank piece of paper
Too many overfilled bottles
Of raw emotion
That just never seems to get empty
No matter how far I tip it over
I'm no longer me
If I no longer know who "Me" is
So I'll walk this beaten path of self destruction
Read the dead end sign and keep walking
Stop at the cliff
Watch the sun set one more time
And awaken the still veins

You told me I was downgrading
I was selling out
Well I'm sorry to disappoint
But sweetheart I'm buying in
No more petty love affair *******
No more cheating on your humanly form
With the ghostly frame of my emotions
No more trading stock for a piece of paper
I'm selling out to buy into something else
I'm going to another company
I'm not trying to waste it all on you
I'm tired of living in this caddyshack rental
Coming home to another heart break
I'm not selling out
Baby I'm buying in
Into something you could never invest in
You're only mad
Because I pulled my investment out of you
And put into these inhuman emotions
Well baby this is the life I live
I'm signing my name in blood

My fiance Adreishka Moonlight
Loves this poem
'In Response To Your Question'
So if you can go read it
Go Like it Love it
Read It again
I want it to be my most famous piece
All for her
I want you to read it
I want to give her this gift
Because I love her
And with your help
We all can put a smile on her face!


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I have my answer
The ghost town inbox
The deserted road to my ear
But in light of my selfishness
I don't blame you
I didn't want to lose you
Yet it seems to be a trend
That has to come to a close
I've loved you for so long
I was willing to become playdough
Molding into a shape suitable
For your pleasure and not mine
Only the satisfaction
Of knowing I was in your grasp
Was truly enough for me
You made your point
It really wouldn't work between us
I didn't want to let go
And that seems to be another issue
I've failed to realize in myself
My mind's a constant theatre
Getting lost in the scenes
Plays of fiction
So realistic I fooled myself
Into hoping for anything
Chasing down a rabbit hole
With illusions of light
At every bend
Even when I was the sculptor
To these caverns of myth
So I assume
This silence you hold
Is the decision you've made
I've lost you so many times before
It hasn't gotten any easier
So I'll commit to it
The slowest form of suicide
And live loving for the last time

Every love story
Has a beginning
A surreal middle
Either happy or sad end
Mine only saw sparks
An ignition
With no fuel added
You just got here
Red hair
Cute blouse
White pants
Sandle like flip-flops
A recluse
I had to know
Somehow my lips
Met yours
With fear in my soul
Divorced dad
No real reason
To be even considered
One date
Steakhouse and a walk
Little conversation
Yet your silence spoke volumes
I read and comprehended
Each aspect you hid
Thinking your diary
Was locked and unreadable
You asked me then
What my intentions were
I didn't want a relationship
I didn't want love
But given the chance
I would have chased it
Held dearly to it
You just didn't get that part
You just saw the start
No real intention
Of your very own
My love story
A hopeless impossibility
Staging scenarios
Playing out in dreams
I've grown to despise
Knowing all too well
There is no point
Keeping you in my mind
So I'll place the period
At the end of this page
Bring this failed romance
To a decent enough close
I'm still viable
For the casket I'll fill
At the end of my own story
Impossibility
That's what you became
It was beautiful
Loving you for this long
Doubt I'll truly ever stop
I just won't let another
Bear witness to it
So the ones that know
Will forget I ever did
You don't need to know me
Even if in your head
I was a possibility
What you have seen
Is all that you'll know
So don't forgive me
When I'm not there
Waiting for the owner
Of my impounded heart