look! :-)
i once tried to wear that smile
to reach the top of a tsunami
but then the bubbles all burst
and i paddled my way into the sea
i hoped my presence would excite a reaction
but the sharks and whales drifted off
and the kelp could only flail
so i sank down to the porous bed
and embraced its grainy mane
the bubbles stopped bursting
the sea pierced through
with the warm bed beneath
i saw a smile floating above me

the winds fly away
the clouds are at bay
the laptop blinks white
the sun is upright

yet, i am reminded
of that faraway land
where everything stands so still
and the world is so light
but it's gone.

i stroke the letters
find a rhythm
the day is so young
but it's gone.

the stars light up my swollen eyes
the rain eases me into conversation
i finally lose touch
and it's gone.

it seems i can't move
but perhaps that's alright
i will soon see faces,
brimming restaurants, and pretty laces

the faraway sights
the starry nights
they're gone
but i'm still here

The sparrows will chirp at dawn,
the clouds will shrivel and fall,
Chippy the Plant will grow tall,
and you will be there to see it all.

i reached for the golden cup
the sparkling wine rinsed my throat
but i still could not find a reason
of course
there is good
and there is bad
i find, however, that
the funny memes
the pretty marriages
the jarringly melancholic pieces
just aren't
i tell myself
that every reason must have a reason
however, all i see is a breathe of possibility
once warm, once cold
now, simply lost in a definitive ocean

it's unfortunate
that you now have to fade away, silly frown
but just remember
                                                       "what were you thinking?!"
that when i reached
                                       "how could you do that?!"
for the daunting knife
             "what's wrong with you?!"
it was you who embraced me
"s-stop!"
and ended your own life.

vibrant streaks of light greet me
as i ready myself for a delectable meal
and devour all the hysterics on morning TV

but if i were to be honest
nothing quite satiates my appetite
like being able to stare down the window
amusing myself
at the sight of the miserable people
who just keep grumbling on and on
about the jobs they're trying to keep
and the families they're trying to feed
truly, it gives me a satisfaction like no other

..until, of course, the shadows creep in
and the miserable people amuse themselves
at the sight of a person
living inside a building tagged 'Insane Asylum'

every book
every bird
every poem
every word
another breath
another sigh
a group of people
that possess one mind

this is where i exist
where i wish i didn't
not because i don't feel good
but because i have to feel good

a place for everyone
as long as the mouths stay shut

every morose lyric
every burdening death
every heartbreaking picture
all just pirouettes

letter by letter
verse by verse
a message that's built
a message that has to possess worth

but can i think?
can i fly?
or is this breath of fresh air
just another cry?