When you go walking down the street,
Who is it you wish to meet?
The best friend who once saved your life?
The ex lover that left you standing on the side?
Or maybe the family you wish you never had.

The world has changed and along with it the people.
Everyone from the north to south pole
Too busy to even think about themselves,
Let alone the poorer people
Everyone struggling through life to meet death

Wondering what it was all for when they meet the end
What was it all for in the end?

But you and I know we will never see the end
It hits us before we can defend
Questioning yourself will make your head cramp
Life has a way of flashing past, so fast
Too short for anything last.

You can't see it clearly
Everything is so blurry
Images flash by in a flurry
So who would you wanna meet?
When you go walking down the street?

He takes it all in
He inhales
The poison
The misery,  the despair
All in one breath
And without a filter
Then resigns
He lets it all float
Because he cannot
Change
Anything
It seems

I am kissing you
Right now
As you read

Our lips touch gently
Then again
Repeatedly

You smile

I feel your touch
Right now
As I write


Your hands slide under my dress, gently
Then again
Repeatedly

This dream is real

Lies, lies and lies again
From “No I swear, that wasn’t me” to you saying “She’s just a friend”
Your stupid story telling now begins
In my own eyes, your unfaithfulness I can no longer defend

From “No I swear, that wasn’t me” to you saying “She’s just a friend”
I find myself contemplating your game
In my own eyes, your unfaithfulness I can no longer defend
To love you again, I’d fall greatly to shame

I find myself contemplating your game
From mine to yours, words become babble
To love you again, I’d fall greatly to shame
In denial, leaves a sleepless night filled with rebuttal

From mine to yours, words become babble
An endless love, I refuse to begin
In denial, leaves a sleepless night filled with rebuttal
Lies, lies and lies again.

Love should be enduring, everlasting, forever… love should be shared with the one you want to be with for years and days to come. I think about her. She really ****** me over. I met the ***** and she ended up dropping me, it wasn’t love though that’s for sure. Why would she be the one who comes to mind ? My love for my family and the love I will have with my significant other are two different kinds of love. I will and would do anything for my family because I love them. We ride it out together through thick and thin. I’d **** for my family. I wouldn’t **** for someone I said I “Love” because its based off of emotion. Love for family is different, its deeper than emotions… its Life. The only real love I’ve ever known was the love of family members. I’ve told others I love them. There is my friendly I love you and an even deeper from the bottom of my heart to the depths of my gut I love you. There is also an if something happened to you I’d be torn to shreds for who knows how long I love you. I myself have many different ways of expressing my love and care for others. Love to me is just another four letter word that is overused and underexpressed.  And at times it means… nothing. But form me I grew up with the old expression of … word is bond.

I wiped it off my sleeve
So you couldn't see it
I watered down the words
So that you couldn't read it
You mean much more to me
Than you even know
And it would be wrong of me
To let you see the things I have to show

So I let you go
And you'll never know

I have a disease
It's nickname's MS
Take a look at my brain
All you'll see is a mess
Catch me on a good day
You'd swear nothing is wrong
But it pops in my head
Like a reoccurring song
Legions on the left side
Legions on the right
Wakes with me in the morning
Sleeps with me at night
When it gets mad
Oh, it lets me know
It takes over my body
Likes to put on a show
Maybe can't walk
Maybe can't see
This is just a taste
Of life in misery
The pain hits quick
Within a blink of an eye
Just before you know it
My body says its goodbye
Everybody's watching
But no one can speak
I hate to put them through this
I hate to see them weep
Such an awful tragedy
Has came into my life
I wish my hands would listen
And grab the fork and knife
When will it stop
The MS will decide
As of right now
It's an inevitable ride
Give me my steroids
All the drugs I can get
I need the pain gone
And for my mind to forget
My mind thinks clearly
While my body shuts down
As I lay here and watch
All my body parts drown
Waiting for the day
When I'm back in control
It can take my body
But never take my soul
We sit here and wait
Cause that's the game
Experience one episode
You'll never be the same
Then the day comes
My pain, it subsides
My body, my brain
Starts to coincide
I'll have to relearn
Things I've been taught
This part right here
Makes me distraught
Sooner or later
I'll be back to me
That wouldn't be possible
Without the Tysabri
For now I have something
To help me get through
Forget for a while
What I know is true
Then I start thinking
"I'm winning the fight!"
"I'm beating MS!"
"I'm feeling alright!"
Then I start questioning
How could this happen to me
Which life I live
Is my reality?
I woke up this morning
And I can't tie my shoe
Here it goes again
Da ja vu.

Never have I seen a marriage so twisted
Her once glowing personality
Tainted by poison
Rotting her heart, burning her flesh
I only hope that she can escape
From his everlasting wickedness

Who knew such a docile beast
*Could create such a mess?

I can’t let go
I can’t move ahead
All that I know
Is this feeling of dread

Of foreboding and pain
Of knowledge lost
And the ground not gained
The paths not crossed

The past is a prison
My fear the bars
I hold myself back
Oh so far

I fear my mistakes
Those I have made
I fear what it takes
To not make them again

My future unclear
My mind full of dread
All I hold dear
Burdens my head

I don’t want to lose it
To see it all go
My being, my mind
All that I know

I fear mistakes
More than death itself
The fool I will make
Of myself

Those in my future
Bred of my past
With consequences
That will forever last

Ones that will haunt me
And torture my thoughts
Twist them against me
And make my resolution naught

These are the things that hold me back
And leave me hidden
By the bars that are the past

Those bars I build
With my own mind
To avoid the roles I need to fill
In my life, in this time.