нямам сили да умея
и си правя онази
тетрадка с хубави
мисли от толкова
много време че не
помня кога изобщо
я започнах и ти
ми липсваш със
силата на хиляда
горящи слънца
искам да изпуша
всичките цигари на
света и да спя и спя
докато той най-сетне
не свърши всичко
ме дразни безумно
искам да я хапя а
не знам дали тя ще
ми позволи ноктите
ми се олющиха и
някак ми се плаче
а уж съм щастлив
мамка му искам
да пия уиски и водка
защото след това
няма да чувствам
нито краката си
нито сърцето си
кокалчетата ме
болят и е приятно
искам да пребия
някого или пък
някой да пребие
мен имам нужда
да кРЕЩЯ но да
събудя всички ще
е невъзпитано а
и съм уморен от
това да бъда
уморен винаги и
вечно котките
бягат от мен и
чаят ми свърши
трябваше да пия
повече кафе днес
моля те бъди при
мен най-сетне не
понасям тъпото
разстояние не
го искам искам
само теб защо
си далеч какво
правиш сега какво
правиш съвсем без
мен какво те кара
да се усмихваш
толкова е трудно
като знам че ти
си там а аз съм
тук и нямам си
никого и никой
няма мен.

Stop trying to remember his scent, he smelled like summer and reminds you of the time he made you laugh so hard, you snorted out milk on that dead, hazy day.

2. Don't waste your day trying to decipher what colour his eyes were, it'll only remind you of the galaxies and constellations that you once saw in his eyes

3. Stop trying to retrace the shape of his mouth in the middle of the night, you'll choke on your tongue trying to taste the mint he devoured seconds before pulling you in for a kiss

4. Stop reliving the times you clasped hands together, the glass plate will fall off your trembling hands.

5. Burn this list, admit that the galaxies and constellations shining in his eyes were wilted, the one in yours are bursting with fire. Remember on the dead, hazy day his laugh sounded like nails running down a chalkboard. Remember when you kissed, the weeds growing from his mouth entangled the roses blooming in yours.

Realize that one day, another boy is going to come and plant daisies where he left behind thorns.

Like a God, you looked up
Unseeing into the sky
The distance between your sight and the stars
That is how far you are away from me.
Yet, like a God, you bless my seconds
Each minute, each moment, each hour
I breathe you in, I adore you each time I blink
The distance between you and me
Matters not to you of course
To me, it is my only hope
In a world so cruel, I dug deeper to search for you
I found beauty in everything I saw,
I found you infinite layers within me.

I should hate you
I should want to burn every single picture of us
into flames and laugh about it
I should be able to listen to a love song
and not think of you
but I can't

I should be able to be with another boy
and kiss him and hold his hand
and not think of you anymore
and how we used to hold hands
without either of us realizing it
and it just happening

but the truth is
I can't hate you
because no matter what I do or where I go
or what I listen to
you're the one that has my heart
and even though you broke it
I still love you with all the pieces

Being a woman is hard.
Actually,
Being a woman
You expect me to be
Is hard.
Being who I am,
Well now,
That's really easy.

So society tells me
I should be thin
Maybe look like 'em supermodels
I guess since
That's not happening
I'll go drown my "sorrows"
In a box of ice cream.

Be beautiful
By putting all that mush on my face?
Sorry, no thank you
I'll pass.
I'll be me with all my spots, marks
Freckles and all.

Because you see,
What I am,
Well the genes,
Were handed to me,
By the two most beautiful people
In the world,
Yes, freckles and all.

I am independent
I am smart
I dont need to look like a clown
To please your senses.
I'm much more than
What's on the surface.
So if you wanna like me
Its a package deal,
Freckles and all.