lord if you exist take me now; take me to the heavens where tears are forbidden where the scars on my arms turn heavenly pure where I cannot hurt. lord if you exist cleanse me of my pain; teach me to be kind to others and myself teach me to not fall again at the hands of evil or kiss the lips of destruction do not let me burn the spoon. lord if you exist allow me to lay with the angels; allow me to float softly through my nightmares, to wipe my own tears to hold him tight when I cannot reach him at all lord, please bring him to me. please bring back my soul so that I may understand what there is to understand to love my family and friends unconditionally to turn the other cheek when he betrays me. to fall in love with another and myself. teach me to waltz underneath the moonlight when I am feeling forgotten so that I may know that I am not alone. father, please, let me touch the pink marmalade skies once and for all.