I'm trying so hard to breathe But the burning in my chest The flames in my soul Make it impossible I lack the oxygen I need
I'm trying so hard to stand tall But I'm starting to fall Because the weight on my shoulders Is heavier than boulders I simply can't have it all
No we can't have it all But we can have nothing Nothing in common But the weight of the world Watching in awe as beside me you fall
And the embers, they smolder For an hour or a day As the breath Ignites once again Consuming the smile Before it is ever born
I'm trying so hard to just be here But I'm beginning to doubt To lose my faith in happiness To bask in all my loneliness I need help to figure it out
I'm trying so hard to believe In the unknown, in what I can't see But life is really bringing me down I'm just gonna paint on this frown I'll never find someone to love me
So, to the flaming death of joy we toast Taking in the screams On the decent of all who falter I watch you fall in silence Sharing a pain that consumes everything
You are focused on nothing I am focused on you, oblivious to all My loneliness beaten back by your own If only momentarily we glance past each other The air too heavy to revive all that is dying
I'm trying, I'M TRYING, I'M TRYING All I can feel around me is the dying I see the painful look in your eyes I know it's simply your disguise I want you to know, I really am trying
I'm trying to breathe, to stand, to be here, to believe But all this death is surrounding me Dragging me down, into my darkened soul A place I know, you'll never follow I need help with my feigned destiny
*One cannot follow what is right beside Bathing in the aftermath of despair Weight of the world, of lost souls, Of the intangible yearning to feel There is only loneliness for fear of sharing
Afraid of loosening the grip on the comfort of stagnant pain or facing the nothingness of the unknown We look but do not see anything save our own pain No, one cannot follow what is right beside I'll hold your pain if you'll hold mine
110914 A Collab between The Girl Who Loved You and myself (in italics). A fun endeavor indeed. :)