It hit like a bullet through the heart, The words he wrote so long ago, "I won’t let these little things slip, but if I do, it's you, that was all I ever cared about ”. A sad excuse for a spin off of "Little Things”. It was sad but it was mine. The memory of those lyrics lingered, In the back of my mind for sometime, Inevitably trying my damnedest to forget. But this morning came with rain and regret, As I scrolled through deleted emails. Job declines and too many college acceptances left my head spinning, Down to words that screamed so vibrantly. It hurt to scan the letters, but I did, I almost shed a tear, but I smiled instead. My eyes wallowed with warm water, For me breathe out a sigh of release.
My heart is clenched and my throat full, Still choking back tears and hating every word I am once again, overcome with hope.
A boy I loved wrote a song for me, because I thought One Direction was sweet for writing the song, Little Things. I am not a fan but that song melted my heart. He used the beat but changed the words to make them about me. We by no means get along today but I found these words this morning in an old email. Although, he's an *** now the last line powered me with motivation somehow.