i remember how we first started talking you sounded so nice yet intimidating and i guess i was already attracted by then i remember how i fell and what made me fall it was all the small things it was the moments we shared i remember the way you say hello when you answer the phone and the different tones you have depending on all your different moods and i remember, how each and every tone sounds like i remember the different laughs you have and how horrible it could sound sometimes but i loved it all because it made me laugh too i remember how much you love nuts and your top three favorites macadamia, almond, hazelnut i remember your love for snakes you would send me pictures and videos of them you learnt about them in class and you would get home and call me to tell me everything oh actually you do that every single day for your every single module the passion you had in your voice gets me smiling all the time and i would just keep silent and listen to you and when you were done i would say i love you and i could hear you smile when you say that you love me too i remember the way you would sit and study when you are stressed i remember the way you study i remember your favorite brands i remember how you would ask me to call and accompany you as you do your laundry and how friendly you were when you bumped into people i remember our **** competitions and i actually remember how some of yours sounded it was disgusting but i loved you more than ever i remember the way your eyes changed when your emotions changes i remember how they would look at me and say a thousand words to tell me how much you love me and i would do the same then i remember how i would close my door switch off the lights due to the time difference the night would still be young for me but not for you but you would wait for me then i would call you and sometimes you would cry cos we didnt manage to talk the whole day and you missed me so much so did i (i still do) i would then sing you to sleep with my horrible singing then in between my singing i would ask you to drink water cos i was afraid you were not drinking enough and i would always remind you that our *** has to be transparent not yellow and it cracks you up every single time so you will drink and i remember how it sounds like when you drink from your bottle and the stupid sounds you would make while drinking and how you would giggle cos you found it funny and when you start saying **** in every single sentence you say i knew you were sleepy so i would keep singing and singing till i could hear you breathe heavily and i would call your name and there will be no reply then i would say good night and i would beg you to wake up the next day cos i need you i should have hung up after you fell asleep but i didnt i listened to you sleeping, breathing heavily and steadily sometimes snoring so loudly sometimes sleeptalking in some foreign language that was what completed my day and night
i remember so much still and as much as i want to forget them these little moments and things about you add up to all of you and its the only way i could have you during the loneliest of times.
it feel so good to be able to finally show you off to the world, even though it has all ended, because i could never do it before due to the fact that we are of the same gender but just look at it. It seems like a normal relationship to me. It feels so good to show how beautiful you are without showing the world how you look like because you are so much more than a pretty girl, you are a beautiful soul. I miss you.