Maybe one day I'll stop breathing. Maybe one day I'll stop feeling pain. Maybe one day I'll find the answer to why but until then, here is where I lie.
I'm with a guy. He tends to hide and lie. Who thinks it okay to kiss a *****, when he happens to be with me. Oh by the way it is **** well cheating and this is the second time. How many more times are you going to make my cry.
I know I'm not perfect. I am quite far from that but why don't you notice the good and quit picking out my flaws.
I asked you why you are with me. All you could say was I don't know. Wow that just hurt me.
You don't see it. You are blind. You tell me everything is fine. Why did you lie?
I can't take it anymore. I don't deserve this. I wanted to be treated with respect but no you'd rather check out other chicks.
You say I should be happy that you are looking and not touching. That is a big fat lie. You told a ***** you had a girlfriend Then you landed a passionate kiss. Not caring how'd I feel. Not seeing that I existed.
I know I have made mistakes. Kissing a chick and grinding with two guys. Don't worry I knew I was with you but I was looking for a good time. You shouldn't be worried because you probably won't care. You were too busy flirting and calling her your baby. When I thought that was me.
The **** of you obsession is absolutely redundant. That is more important to you than me. Enjoy yourself while I am sleep. I know that's when you decide to ******* because apparently I can not please.
When your not around I please myself. I touch myself. All you have to say is I knew I couldn't satisfy you. Maybe now you see how I feel.
Looking at you and kissing you. They are two different sides. I am with you. I can't believe you are mind but also I'm sick of this **** you do to me. One more **** up and I'm through with you.
You have no heart like I. So you should be fine and able to survive.
Peace.
I wrote this on 2/2/12. Three years later I am still with this man. Yet nothing changed. I should have ended it then.