Why don't you love me? Everyone tells me you do. Everyone tells me you will Everyone tells me you will as long as I'm a good, good girl. Well I'm not a good girl, and I'm not terribly sorry. Everyone tells me you love me anyway. Why do they say it over and over You never do. No, you never say "I love you, Tracie."
No, not in my ear No, not in my holy books No, not in my heart. No, no, no. Not once does it say John 3:16 "I love you, Tracie." Not once.
You're supposed to love me. You're supposed to be my daddy. I have a daddy, and he's real. He's here. He's with me all the time. He tells me every day "Tracie, I love you. You are my cupcake princess." Daddy says he loves me. Aren't you supposed to be my daddy too? Matthew 5:48 Daddy why don't you love me?
Why can't you HEAR me, Daddy? Can't you hear your aching child? Can't you hear the cries within me Of your little one lost in the dark When the voice of her father has left her Without compass by which to navigate? Don't you hear me when I curl up inside Knocked to the floor on my bed Holding myself close in my apartment Screaming in my soul "Daddy, why won't you protect me from the monsters From the demons in my head From the eyes in the dark that come to me at night When I can't sleep and they tear me apart Because they're coming from inside of me and No one else can see them in the dark Turn on the light! TURN ON THE LIGHT! DADDY ARE YOU THERE"
And the darkness answers nay.
One day it won't hurt. One day I'll stop caring One day I'll stop hating you Because I'll have stopped loving you One day I won't be afraid. You don't have to love me, I suppose. If that's what you want. And one day I won't hate you for it. You don't have to love me Just never ask for me to love you either.