I grew up in suburbia- With picket fences as white as the faces Who say they're godly enough to save babies (As long as they're not queer) Because we don't have to live with the fear Of corpses lining the sidewalks Of our perfectly landscaped yards We have no guards firing on peaceful protestors Because our children are filed into orderly lines Laid out for them at birth But for what it's worth, we teach them of racism From a white textbook that lies about founding fathers Where segregation is just a word and Oppression is hardly even mentioned. Our children, who play at the age of 6 And lose their innocence at the age of 16 Suburbia is a life of it's own, Gangly arms and legs Like the teenagers who starve themselves And steal their parents liquor Just to get drunk quicker Ignorant of those on the streets dying of hunger No wonder I yearn to be far from this hell I call home.
Allen Ginsberg once said “America I’ve given you all and now I am nothing” The Wonder Years once said “Suburbia I’ve given you all and now I am nothing” But I’ve found fallacies in both of these, I feel it’s more like Suburbia I’ve given you all And now I’m an awkward 20 year old Who doesn’t know how to talk to black people Suburbia I’ve given you all And now I’m way too confident walking around the city at night Because I forget there are communities Where people actually have to lock their doors, Suburbia I’ve given you all And now I have a 16 year old brother Who thinks the word *** and **** jokes are funny Suburbia I've given you all And now my father hates that I'm for gender equality Well dear daddy, I hope this offends you.
Because I am offended By a community that tells **** victims they were asking for it I am offended by a community That tells my best friend Liam That he's just confused, that His love for Adam is an abomination I am offended by a community That offers equality as thinly veiled oppression, With houses decorated in the decadence of degradation, All the while their perfect sons and daughters Are dying of depression because The hilt of a gun is so much quicker Than the drugs of their addiction
Suburbia, you are the seed of suicide Feeding off of your violent silence, Your white fences slice our tongues And leave us mindless. Suburbia, you have betrayed us. Taught us ignorance is bliss with Algebra instead of how to do taxes, Spent more time worried about Girls' shoulders instead of *** education, Taught me not to speak unless My hand was raised as if praise Is given to authority without question, Funny how they forgot to mention Our country was founded on rebellion.
But suburbia, I forgive you And so I humbly ask of you, Find the keys of compassion within the heart and Shed the lock of ignorance that grips your mind The door may be rusted but it can open with time Suburbia, I beg of you Join us in the war of love Let us all raise our fists and Paint peace signs on our wrists, We are disobedient dandelions swaying in the sun, Words of kindness rolling off our tongues Like pacifistic shots of a gun Firing respect instead of rounds And burying hate instead of bodies in the ground.
***This is a group piece. The lovely Mary Hamula is the other writer that worked on it with me.