I just don't understand how you could use me to do your work,
to lead your people,
to shine your light,
when I'm not even worthy to be in the same room with you.
When you are the light
the shepherd
the savior of all the world.
the creator.
you are love and grace
you are life and death at the same time
you aren't the absence of darkness, darkness is the absence of you.

My heart isn't clean God. How could you use me?
My heart is shattered by the world. How could you use me to lead the world?
My heart is dark, hidden by laughter. How could you use me to show your steadfast love.

*I'm empty, God.
Please hold me close in your arms until there's none of me.
Only you.