You want to know what the difference between loving a woman and loving a man is?
Nothing
Being a bisexual man I find that a few people I talk to have many questions and queries as to what it means and what it's like being attracted to both genders
Well, what I usually tell them is everyone is attractive in one way or another
And that I cannot chose only one *** to be attracted to
I do not believe there was ever a time in my life where I didn't fancy men or women
I remember thinking it was normal to like both
Until I was about six years old and kids in my class were calling each other
gay
And when I asked what that meant some kid told me it was what you call a boy who wanted to kiss other boys to make fun of them
I immediately became confused
Why would you make fun of that?
Doesn't everyone like boys?
After that I began noticing relationships within the TV shows I would watch
Girls were perused by men
And men were pined for by women
Husbands and wives
Boyfriends and girlfriends
But why?
I started to repress my attraction toward men and focused on only women
I became a womanizer by the age of eleven
A horn dog
I suppose by taking my pent up lust for men made my lust for women double
I was obsessed with ***
I just wanted to bang bang bang
Jerking off like five times a day everyday
Looking at ****
Staying up late just to watch a censored ******* commercial
******* my bed
One handed delight
I restricted myself from even looking at another boy, no matter how bad I wanted to
It wasn't until I was about sixteen when I began to allow myself to feel anything towards the same ***
I felt like I wasn't being honest to myself because I was scared how everyone in my life would see me
I had enough, I let myself become whole again
I didn't feel the need to stand up on a soap box and say "I LOVE ****!"
But I refused to restrain myself from denying the fact that I was bisexual
I finally came out to a close friend when I was seventeen
Then another
And another
They were all accepting and nothing between us ever changed
My family on the other hand
Well, was nineteen when I told my dad
He threw me out of the house
When I told my mom she told me i was going to go to hell
But, the fact remained, I played for both teams
Still to this day when it's brought up they just call me an idiot
I can deal with that, they still love me
Now, I've only had a connection with a few people
Some men
Some women
The men in my life have usually lead to disappointment
They only wanted ***
Don't get me wrong I'm totally down for that
But I was looking for something a little bit more
Because that's what they seemed to want too, at least when we first started talking
The women in my life have lead me to discovery
I found out that I can be sensitive, annoying, mean, careless, forgetful and just all around disrespectful
But they also taught me how to better myself, how to understand someone, and most importantly how to love
I'm not saying all men are pigs
And I'm not saying all women are angels
The point I'm trying to make is that, regardless of genitals, ****** preference or identity
People are people, with different stories, ideas and issues
And each one of them has their own desires
Some hurt you
Some help you
Some teach you
And some don't even care
But that doesn't mean just because someone tells you that being interested in some one of the same *** is wrong and that you should listen and lie to yourself
If you love some one, tell them
If you're attracted to some one, talk to them
If you want to ****, send out an invitation and see what happens
I wasted a part of my life ignoring a natural desire because I was scared of it, don't make my mistake
Listen to your heart and run with it
My name is Tommy Johnson and I'm a bisexual human being
One last thing,where did the nomenclature of the words "bi" "gay" or "straight" come from? Why do we feel the need to classify and label things?