Aches and pains restricted because they're self-inflicted Sorry for behaving ways that you predicted Laziness not just sitting still Don't believe it's wrong that most days I don't do much but chill Demands left expectations only define explanation Arm me with explosives then act surprised at detonation Deodorize your selfishness Only meet my toes Keeping track of exact amount each past mistake owes Cuts leave scars Words change who we are It seems like lately you're always too far Differences make time Paint ourselves Keep storing trust on too high of shelves Heard the message the little birdie didn't say Glance at your face unravels silence in the way Knocking at door but you refuse to let me in Upon a thin line tug back and forth but neither of us can win My patience at moments is shorter than my bitten fingernails Over-correcting when trying to even out the scales The gateway to happiness is one I am eager to explore Without you next to me what would I even open it for? Any pursuit seems to be a colossal waste Facing dead ends Hasty pointless chase Day after day repeat the same routine Bouncing up and down on this infinite trampoline
My emotions are always one extreme or another but it's always back and forth over and over how do I control my feels?