in the quiet,
in the stillness,
when the silence is
too loud,
my anxiety creeps in,
my heart racing,
i take a deep breath,
remind myself i’m safe,
i’m here, i’m present,
there’s nothing to be afraid of..
i know my body’s not
used to being calm,
i know my brain is
craving the chaos
because it's all it’s ever known..
like a drug addict,
the withdrawal symptoms
are hitting hard,
all i want is to sleep away
those thoughts
that circle around
in the back of my head
and burn those memories off.