How can the absolute fact that "I'd do anything to see my son" And the sinking reality I've not made enough effort to see him Exist in the same plane of existence? A fuucking paradox An impossible duality But here I am Standing in that exact reality And the answer is me There's no possibility, Not even probably, That he hasn't noticed the same And that truth haunts me Daily and nightly Destroys absolutely And completely Why doesn't that push me?