Every night as I go to bed with my conscious filled with remorse and my heart so heavy I feel like a side of my body cries out in pain, and the other one feels wholly empty Tears roll down my eyes as if I hadn’t cried enough during the day Still, I wish there was a way in which I could just make the grief go away
My mind seems clouded with a million things, each of them ripping me apart I feel so emotionally drained that even keeping up with my sanity seems so hard Wanting to break free from the shackles of my mind, I now realize I can no longer carry Carry the fear of futility, the fear of failure, the fear of everything. I just want to spend my youth in a merry
Insecurities forge the unrest I sense within my chest, they make me feel like nothing to the world I could give The emotions that I have been suppressing have now left me suffocated, my ribs can no longer protect my heart by instilling all the pain, at any moment they might split And though being thankful for everything I am blessed with, I feel like I don't even deserve a bit With this constant thought running through my brain cells, I realise that I am slowly turning into an under-watered withering flower, with no desire to live