You need to be scared, scared that any slip up could be fatal. Not for you of course, for the ones you forget about. the ones you chose your self over. Like your step dad, when was the last time you said hi, while you were slipping out into the night. They will be gone and, You're not getting them back. You need to be scared. You need to think everyones going to die, because they will. You need to spend every moment giving love to others. Stop being selfish, you don't matter, you need to be scared.