I’ve been distant from everyone ... Trying to find myself ... To only be losing myself in the mist of it all.. Pretending to be okay .. Which I never was, I mean wish I was..
I have good days and bad.. My mind race with thoughts uncontrollably.. Evil ones Good ones Bad ones Unrealistic ones..
Sometimes my mind goes blank, sometimes I daydream and feel everything and sometimes I feel nothing at all...
Try to knock me down I fumble a little but never fall... I be trippin These drugs got me lifted This drink got me numb I’ve been feeling nothing for to long It’s scary .. I can’t let the evil take control, the devil controls the weak.. I am still head high with so much strength ! Just hurts to be strong sometimes. I’m disconnecting from myself , trying to connect to people... I always feel alone .. Even when I’m not.
My heart is crying out for help.. My pride won’t let me get it ... I’m over it all... I need to distance myself from my emotions, & my feelings.. & reconnect to my soul