Euphoria It is a word That means absolute and total happiness excitement ecstasy and joy It explains a feeling of immense pleasure this feeling I know when I touch my bones delicate and hard beneath my skin it's not as if I reach through and find them between the sinew and skin No, they rise to meet me as every day I eat a little less and each day the bones so pale and white they show just a little bit more My collarbones start to press against my skin as if pressing through paper my ribs straining against my skin so delicate or at least, they will become so my hips will jut out just a bit more and my stomach better than flat it is concave although it only becomes so when i lay down but perhaps if I run an extra mile today then tomorrow, I will see them each day I go to work counting religiously counting calories, bites, chews cups, pounds, ounces I carefully measure each aspect of who I am because I am not who I want to be yet but I will be If I control what I do then I can control Who I am And if you can see the sunset between my thighs and the mug between my fingers on a cold morning sipping coffee black and bitter I will be good enough for just a moment a breath a fleeting second in my eternity I will be okay because I am enough