there is so much ******* pain lined up inside me like layers of skin i have layers of pain
so much unsorted trauma lying in my chest, mind, heart my soul it aches for growth, but i am still figuring out the trauma part
i am not who i am born into i am not the things that have happened to me i am not the people who have hurt me
i am Me i am my Self I am Grace i am strong
i have been hurt but the weight of the pain has become too heavy to drag around i must dump the body
the body of trauma that lay inside me fare ******* well
i am not required to forgive you and for now i cannot for you have sinned much more, far, far, far more than forgiveness could erase
ten fold i hope the horrible terrible evil things you’ve committed
i hope they come down raining ten fold on your stupid ******* head since you don’t get the picture
and here i will sit while you writhe in suffering disowning your evilness rather than facing it head on swords up cutting through the thick disgust
but you ******* cower like the ******* you are you feel no remorse you find pleasure in the pain of others and for that let bygones be bygones
i trust. for your troubles are out of my hands the things you’ve done to me they are out of my hands i will try to forgive, oh but i will never ******* forget
i fill my hands with what i deserve i fill my hands with love i fill my hands with abundance i fill my hands with peace
i let you go now you no longer have a place in my life holding on much longer will not suffice