I sat with my grief long enough To be at peace with her Asked her how she came to live with me She replies with a simple answer I am the product of your lovely heart The heart that allowed itself to be touched,broken and mended. I asked if she would leave soon She replied, so as long as love lies inside, I will also be.
I sat with my pain , who looked wrung out and bled profusely I offered a cloth to stop the bleeding But she refused to take it, said she didn’t want to heal I then proceeded to ask her why she stayed She starts to cry aloud and shows me her wounds When I looked carefully I saw that they were bind with heaps of memories and guilt I slowly took a deep breath and untangled the rusted chains of guilt one by one The beads of memories were tightly wrapped between the chains It took me a thousand tries to untangle the mess But when I finally did, my pain stopped bleeding . She took a breath of relief and thanked me for it The next morning she left and replaced herself with wisdom
I also sat with my insecurities We sipped a cup of warm chamomile When it was all calm, I began to ask her How and why she became a part of me She looked afraid and shaken for a while Then she whispered and told me It was because the world had distorted my own perception of myself, that she was born and grew to be a part of me I did not want to kick her out so harshly, lest she be filled with more fear So I gave her a pat on the hand and kissed her gently Told her she need not grow any longer And asked her to become my best friend I was no longer ashamed to be with her nor was she with me, And this is how I found a home inside myself.